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Happy Birthday! (please excuse my lame editing job)

AYE DÍOS MÍO! THIS IS THE MOST ADORABLE THING EVER, LIZ!! I LOVE YOU DEARLY!!!! AH!! I am so saving this as a background!!!! And you say you can’t edit… Pshaw… It’s amazing!!!!!! Look at his adorable little face. Sorry, I am having difficulties processing his adorable face next to my name... Fangirl problems.

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Tagged by the greatness that is miss nerdiosity... :)

RULES

Rule 1: Always post the rules.
 Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones.
 Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them to the post.
 Rule 4: Actually tell them you tagged them.

Your answers were HILARIOUS! Wait, gotta do my questions, duh.

1) Who is your favorite artist and why? Hmmm…. As much as I love how crazy Dalí is, I have to say Leonid Afremov. The colors are just amazing.

2) post an image of a piece by them you find inspiring

3) which is more annoying to see: socks with sandals and shoes without socks? Can’t really say either as I’ve done both, but probably the sandals with socks.

4) you have to chose between not showering for a week or not brushing your teeth for a week, which one will it be? Not brushing my teeth.

5) Is there a fandom on tumblr that you wish you were a part of but just don’t see yourself ever joining? The Doctor Who fandom

6) are you where you thought you would be in your life now? If not are things better than you imagined? Hahaha… No. They aren’t better than I’d imagined. I feel very stunted in my accomplishments.

7) Do you believe in luck? To a degree.

8) Let’s be honest, did you buy Beanie Babies because you really liked them or because they were the key to your retirement? Haha. LOVE this question. At first it was because I really liked them, and then it became a hoarding type of thing. I still have like 300. Haha

9) Favorite Disney movie? Ugh…this is a tough one between The Aristocats & Oliver & Company

10) A trip to Disney world or a trip to a country you’ve never been to? The latter

11) What’s your most superficial deal breaker when it comes to someone you could be romanticaly interested in? If I don’t find them attractive…. I am very particular

LOVE THE QUESTIONS And here are mine… :) 1. What is your favorite dance move to break out?

2. What language, even if you cannot speak it, sounds the most pleasant?

3. What would you play on the playground when you were 5?

4. What was the first book you read by yourself?

5. What is one of your guilty pleasures?

6. You can either be a mime, a clown, or a mascot. Which do you choose?

7. Ever had a white Christmas?

8. The largest problem in society?

9. Tea, juice, or milk for the rest of your life?

10. If we could bring back one era’s sense of style, what would it be?

11. Heaviest thing you ever picked up?

Answer as you please. :)

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Update on Midnight Musings

I am sorry guys that once again, I have taken so long to put up the responses, but I will by Monday. Things have just been crazy with Thanksgiving, birthdays, and decorating for Christmas. We still don't have our trees even up. Anyway, I really do apologize.", and I will send you a message when I have them posted.

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marylily2 What is the scariest movie you have ever seen? So, as strange as this may sound, I really believe that finding a movie scary and being scared by a movie are two completely different things. For example, you can watch a movie and truly appreciate the atmosphere or the acting and agree that it’s scary without being scared by it. Where as if you’re actually scared by a movie, it’s actually impacted you and frightened you, and has caused an actual reaction. With this in mind, I’m going to answer for both instances. I think the scariest movie I’ve ever seen is probably one of the Ju-On films or the Ringu trilogy as I think Asian horror is absolutely brilliant. I also loved The Exorcism Of Emily Rose and thought that had a pretty horrifying element considering it’s based on a true story. In terms of what actually scared me the most, I’d have to go with Pet Semetary by Stephen King. Now, I know you’re probably thinking about how silly that is because it’s probably the most harmless movie ever. However, it’s not the film itself but rather a specific character- Zelda. She’s the main character’s severely deformed sister and considering I’m extremely teratophobic, it just didn’t bode well for me. I slept in my mum’s bed for 14 days after seeing her, and I was 16. What are your phobias? As stated above, the most severe phobia I have is teratophobia which is a huge hindrance to my life, especially if I have to visit someone in a hospital. I also suffer with a chronic phobia of staying the night away from home and also a phobia of rape. If you celebrate Halloween, what was your first costume? I’m almost certain my first costume was either a cat or a witch, but of course that was 19 years ago so it’s a struggle to remember. What are you dressing up/doing this year for Halloween if you celebrate? Unfortunately, the UK is just not all that big on Halloween. I am, however, going to watch The Conjuring in my home town cinema at night. What character/icon have you spent the most time ever making a costume for (be it cosplay, Halloween, a play, etc.?) I have a form of brain damage called Hydrocephalus and the biggest thing that is impacted are my motor skills so sadly I can’t make my own costumes. Do you like to be scared? Gosh that’s a difficult question. I love horror films and I suppose being ‘creeped out’. I love scary books, swapping scary stories, discussing dreams that have haunted us etc. but firstly, I HATE jumping. I will sit through a jumpy movie but it doesn’t thrill me, it just makes me feel like I’ve lost 10 years from my life. With that in mind, I draw the line at going into haunted mazes or houses at theme parks. That’s my ultimate no-no. Secondly, I hate being scared to the point where you can’t sleep at you’re actually shaking and paranoid. That really gets me. Do you believe in ghosts? I do indeed. I also believe we can communicate with spirits via our dreams. What was Halloween like when you were younger? It was certainly more exciting. I wasn’t allowed to trick or treat until I was very old but instead, my mum used to throw these amazing parties with scary music, games, decorations and lots and lots of food. What is the best trick you’ve ever played on someone? I’m really not one for practical jokes. My mum always hated them and I guess I was raised the same way so I’ve never really pulled a prank on anyone. sweetdiosa • What is the scariest movie you have ever seen? This may make me sound like a psychopath, but I really enjoy horror films. I can’t explain why, there’s just something about them that I enjoy. I tend to prefer ones which are more realistic, so not the paranormal-based ones. I very rarely find any of them scary though. I’d probably say the scariest I’ve seen are the Saw film series as they seem quite realistic and feasible. •What are your phobias? Despite them being tiny and usually harmless, I’m scared of bugs & creepy crawlies. Strangely, I’m scared of small house spiders, but not at all scared of tarantulas (which I have handled). I can’t really think if anything else. I don’t scare that easily. •If you celebrate Halloween, what was your first costume? I’ve never had one :( Halloween is celebrated a lot less in England than in America. I almost went to an animal-themed halloween party a couple of years ago, but my friend had to cancel it as she was ill. I hadn’t decided on a costume yet though. •What are you dressing up/doing this year for Halloween if you celebrate? Again, nada. We don’t even get any trick-or-treaters. In the 23 years I’ve lived in this house, we’ve only once had trick-or-treaters, and they were just the neighbour’s children. I spent the evening watching TV. I lead an exciting life. •What character/icon have you spent the most time ever making a costume for (be it cosplay, Halloween, a play, etc.?) I’ve only dressed up a couple of times in my life. I dressed up as Alice in Wonderland once - I basically just wore a pale blue dress, white pinafore and carried a rabbit (stuffed toy) around with me all day. That’s about as creative as it gets with me. I’d love to have a proper cosplay outfit though! •Do you like to be scared? I like to be scared by films, but not really “in real life”. •Do you believe in ghosts? Normally, being a very “if I can’t see it/prove it, it doesn’t exist” type person, I’d say no. But, I have had a few paranormal, ghost-type things happen to me a few years ago, and my Dad had a true “ghost story” that he experience too, so it’s making me doubt myself, A LOT. •What was Halloween like when you were younger? Again…nada. When I was young, I once tried to hold a party just for my family (literally just for the 4 of us, yep, I’m lame). I bought tomato juice and said it was blood, and played scary music, and just made the family all sit in the lounge doing nothing but drink tomato juice for, like, 30 minutes. •What is the best trick you’ve ever played on someone? I haven’t played that many. My Mom is the easiest of targets, and the simple ‘hiding behind the door and jumping out’ gets her every. single. time. Probably the one that had the best reaction - I played it on my whole family, I downloaded a scream on to my phone (and not a pathetic scream - a proper, blood-curdling scream) and set an alarm with that as the sound, then hid my phone upstairs, went downstairs with the whole household and about 20 minutes later - boom! I think it caused more confusion than fear though.

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The lovely missolitude tagged moi! I might have tagged you, so check!

I’ve been tagged by missolitude. Thank you so much! I am very honored. :)

RULES:
1. Always post the rules
2. Answer the questions of the person who tagged you and write 11 new ones.
3. Tag 11 people and link them.
4. Let them know that they are tagged.

My Questions 1. Did you have a dream last night? What was it about? Hmm…. I actually can’t remember if I did or not. I know night before last, I had an awesome AHS-themed dream.

2. A song that you feel describes yourself. Daisy - Brand New Damaged - Plumb

3. Last fictional character crush? Mochizikun Kotaro from Samurai High!

4. Are you in love at the moment? Nope…

5. Do tell, are you procrastinating right now? If yes, what should you be doing instead? :P Perpetually so… Cleaning, decorating, buying gifts, exercising, taking care of bills

6. What was the last series you watched? Did you like it? America’s Next Top Model Season 20. I like it, but the people on there are so woe is me and dramatic. Geez. Plus, I don’t find many of them particularly “modely” - not that they aren’t attractive, but I just don’t see high fashion.

7. What was the last thing you ate? Chocolate chip cookie.

8. Who was the last person you called? My dad

9. What’s your favourite quote? Oh boy…. Umm… Here’s one.

“But hurry, let’s entwine ourselves as one, our mouth broken, our soul bitten by love, so time discovers us safely destroyed.” ― Federico García Lorca

10. What was your favourite subject at school? Probably philosophy of the mind or ecology or maybe botany

11. Are you happy? Not really, but I can’t complain. I’m generally not of the happy disposition, but September, October, & November with the seasons changing always makes me feel more depressed. But I have plenty of things to be grateful and thankful for.

NEW QUESTIONS: 1. What is one lyric that sums up your life?

2. Which period in history do you find most interesting and why?

3. If aliens came down to Earth and asked for you to show them one thing to “sum up” humanity, what would you show them?

4. Rain forest, beach, mountain top or arctic tundra?

5. Have you ever experienced synesthesia (A condition in which one type of stimulation evokes the sensation of another, as when the hearing of a sound produces the visualization of a color)?

6. What is the most beautiful sounding word in your opinion?

7. What is the most breathtaking thing you have ever seen?

8. Do you have any plants?

9. “Click” the movie becomes real. Would you fast forward through parts of your life if you could?

10. In terms of body language, what do you find the most interesting?

11. If you could create a word & definition for anything not already named what would it be?

HAVE AT IT. Thanks again for the tag. :)

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I'm logging off for right now, but thank you everybody for listening and I will write you all back later tonight.

Sorry for being so melodramatic, and you guys are awesome.

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Midnight Musings 2: Fictional Work that Has Impacted Your Life the Most Thank you all so much for your participation! Unfortunately it cut the end of my video off, but the majority of it is in there. sparksflyhere: I’m a voracious reader, and always have been, so there are so many different books that I could choose that have influenced my life. However, there are two in particular that have stuck with me for the past year or so. This past spring, I read Before I Fall, by Lauren Oliver. It’s about a girl who dies in a car accident and relives the last day of her life multiple times. The author just put into words perfectly what it feels like to be a teenage girl in a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere, and how the simplest of actions can change your life forever. Sometimes you just read a book at the right time in your life, and it makes you feel like you’ll never read a book that great ever again. This author is just incredible; maybe she’s not a literary genius, but she knows just how to say what I’ve always been thinking. Some of my favorite lines are: “It’s not that I’m not totally happy—I am—but it’s almost like sometimes I have to keep running over and over in my head why I liked him in the first place, like if I don’t I’ll somehow forget.” “Things that aren’t like me. I’m not even sure how you know. I mentally try to add up all the things I’ve done in my life, but no clear picture emerges, nothing that will tell me what kind of person I am—just a lot of haziness and blurred edges, indistinct memories of laughing and driving around. I feel like I’m trying to take a picture of the sun: all of the people in my memories are coming back featureless and interchangeable.” “Outside the cold burns my lungs and makes the pain in my throat worse. I take a deep breath, sucking in the smells of wood fires and gasoline. The sun is beautiful, long and low on the horizon like it’s stretching itself, like it’s shaking off a nap, and I know underneath this weak winter light is the promise of days that last until eight P.M. and pool parties and the smell of chlorine and burgers on the grill; and underneath that is the promise of trees lit up in red and orange like flames and spiced cider, and frost that melts away by noon—layers upon layers of life, always something more, new, deeper. It makes me feel like crying, but Lindsay’s already parked in front of the house, waving her arms and yelling, ‘What are you doing?’ so instead I just keep walking, one foot in front of the other, one, two, three, and I think about letting go—of the trees and the grass and sky and the red-streaked clouds on the horizon—letting it all drop away from me like a veil. Maybe there will be something spectacular underneath.” Lauren Oliver also wrote the Delirium series, which takes place in a dystopian future, where love is considered a disease. Once again, I read this at the right time in my life, and thoroughly enjoyed it. The first book, Delirium, is the best in the series, and sets up quite an interesting scenario. I think I’ll be influenced by these books for the rest of my life, and they’ll always remind me of my last semester in school, and the emotional turbulence that accompanied it. “But I have a secret. You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist. And there are many of us out there, more than you think. People who refuse to stop believing. People who refuse to come to earth. People who love in a world without walls, people who love into hate, into refusal, against hope, and without fear. I love you. Remember. They cannot take it.” ------------------------- sweetdiosa: This was even more of a difficult topic than the previous one. I read quite a lot of books and I usually enjoy every book in some aspect, so picking one favourite is impossible. But the one I’m going to mention (a very popular choice on Tumblr I think) is:- The Fault in our Stars by John Green. This book is definitely somewhat of a masterpiece. It’s a very sad book, but it’s one that stays with you & keeps you thinking for a long time after you’ve read it. It also does have quite a lot of humour in it and is very cleverly written. There are so many amazing quotes that can be taken from the book. But a couple of my favourites are: “My thoughts are stars I can’t fathom into constellations” and “You don’t have to choose if you get hurt in this World…but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices”. I do like the two main character, Hazel Grace and Augustus, but one of my favourite characters, and I can’t quite put my finger on why, is actually Isaac, who’s a somewhat lesser-character. My favourite scene would probably be the stereotypical choice of when Hazel Grace and Augustus first meet, but there are several special scenes throughout the book. There are so many books I could mention it’s ridiculous. ----------------------------- marylily2: Before I answer the questions at hand, let me first take this time to say how long and hard it was to pick only one work of fiction. When you consider how many books, shows, games and movies there are, it really doesn’t make things any easier. But, after a long time deliberating, I’ve chosen to talk about 1 Litre Of Tears/Ichi Rittoru No Namida. Why has this particular work impacted your life so much? Allow me to first of all explain a little bit about this show. 1 Litre Of Tears is a Japanese television show adapted from the real diary of a 15 year old girl called Aya Kito. Aya was diagnosed with Spinocerebellar Ataxia at age 15, which- to be blunt- means dying a slow, painful and above all, early death. This television show documents the slow process of her first discovering her illness (and of course the impact it has on her entire family) right up until her last day on this earth and even the aftermath. I think the reason this impacted me so much is because it’s not your typical J Drama that centres around love, heart break or break ups and scandals, (not that there’s anything wrong with those!) this is about something so much deeper and literally takes the audience through the entire process of her illness. You aren’t just sympathising with Aya herself but her entire family, her friends. It’s just so incredibly raw! Without spoiling too much, there is one particular scene where her father- a stoic, strong and courageous man- literally curls into the foetal position and weeps like a child. The acting is the best I have EVER seen and just, all in all, it’s something I believe EVERYONE should watch, at least once. What did you learn from it? The main thing that I took away from this show is gratitude. We walk every day of our lives and don’t take the time to appreciate how miraculous our bodies are. The human body is an amazing thing and we- unintentionally of course- take it for granted constantly. I feel this show also teaches empathy. I couldn’t help but sit there the entire time and think ‘What if this was me? What if I had this same disease?’ One of the cruellest things about it is the fact that Aya’s brain still functions normally the entire way through it. So whilst every muscle in her body stops working over the course of 10 years, she still has the mind of an intelligent young woman passionate about life. I also couldn’t help but feel sympathy for her family. Her mother and father who spent 15 years with an able bodied care free daughter, her younger sister who has always felt resentment towards Aya for receiving what she perceives to be preferential treatment but in reality loves her so dearly, her young brother who is embarrassed and ashamed of Aya at first and has to come to terms with the new way of life, and finally, Aya’s youngest little sister who is so young she probably can’t even comprehend what’s going on. Who would you recommend it to (i.e. is there a specific target audience that you think could benefit from it)? I genuinely feel that everyone should give this show a chance. Even people who have shown an avid dislike for subtitled dramas and films. It’s just one of those things that gives you an entirely new perspective on life and therefore, I wouldn’t assign a target audience because it’s universally impacting. How has it changed your perspective? As stated above, I feel it’s given my life an entirely new perspective. I try to express daily gratitude now for my body, for every day that I’m healthy, for every day that my limbs work and that I can speak without difficulty. It truly does make you feel that appreciation that we all, for the most part, seem to unintentionally lack. Also, every year on 23rd May (Aya’s death anniversary), I write her a letter. Whether there is an afterlife or not, I do not know, but I like to believe that somehow, somewhere, she can hear my words. A favorite quote, scene, dialogue? There are so many scenes that stand out for me that I don’t think I can only choose one. I’ll just name a few. The first is a speech which Aya gives to her classmates about leaving their school. She has reached the most difficult decision of leaving mainstream school to go to a school for the disabled and delivers the most heart wrenching but fantastic and articulate speech I’ve ever heard. The second is the moment in which it’s confirmed for Aya’s mother that there truly is nothing she can do, and that no doctor on the planet will be able to help because there is genuinely no cure. A third is the moment when Aya’s younger brother is finally able to make peace with Aya’s condition and proudly announces to all his friends at his football (soccer for the US) game that she is his sister. Another is much much later on when Aya is nearing death. She is still so full of determination and courage that she desperately tries to do things for herself. She attempts to go to the toilet without the aid of a nurse and right there and then, at 24 years old, soils herself. The sight is so pitiful but the acting is that moment is just unfathomably wondrous. The final moment (to bring this up to five) that I’ll mention is the point in which Aya has already passed and her mother goes to Aya’s old school to visit the beautiful display they’ve built in Aya’s memory. She gives this beautiful narration and in a sense ‘talks’ to Aya. It’s heart wrenching but so moving and wonderfully done. A favorite character? I want to sit here and say Aya herself but that seems like the easiest answer I could give. Instead, I will say Haruto Aso. He is, in a sense, Aya’s love interest, and is there for her until the bitter end. Though Aya very much rejects him, like a lost dog, he waits by her side day in day out. Least favorite character? I think I’ll say Mari, Aya’s best friend, because no matter how hard she tries, she just can’t tolerate Aya’s disability and whilst I’ll be the first to appreciate how much patience it takes, if she she truly Aya’s best friend then this shouldn’t matter. Your perfect ending? In a way, we got the best ending we could have. Aya was going to die inevitably. There was and, still to this day, is no cure for the disease she endured. Whilst her pain, her suffering and her torment were torturous to watch, she was so brave and so strong that everything probably worked out as well as it could have. Sorry for the essay there :P Just writing that made me start crying haha! -------------------- Amy: The work that impacted my life the most was The Wizard of Oz, as I used to watch it several times together with my family. It really brought is together. While, I don't have much appreciation for movies or fantasy, it was probably the only movie that really showed me the potential of both. My favorite character was the Wicked Witch of the West and my least Glinda. I suppose, I root for the villain. Haha. My favorite lines were either "Surrender Dorothy" that the Wicked Witch wrote in the sky with smoke or before Dorothy left the Oz, when she went over and whispered in the Scarecrow's ear "I'll miss you the most of all." Or something along those lines. And what did it teach me? As cliche as it sounds, it showed me that there truly is no place like home.

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I was tagged by the lovely and amazing xstarxdustx!

Rule 1: Always post the rules

Rule 2: Answer the questions you were tagged on and make eleven new ones

Rule 3: Tag 11 new people and link them to your post

Rule 4: Let them know they have been tagged

Thank you lovely for tagging me, and asking me some awesome questions!

1. What is your favorite mythological creature?
 Hmm, my favorite mythological creature. Oh geez. This is difficult. I’d probably have to say the idea of being a vampire, and becoming immortal as well as being able to grant other people immortality, as I am terrified of death, is a big one. I know that sounds really cliche and cheesy. But either that or a mystical healer. My favorite, mythological creature, in terms of interestingness is the unicorn though.

2. Do you like to drink tea?
 Yes, I love iced tea in particular.

3. Do you have a sweet tooth, and if you do what’s you favorite treat?
 Not particularly, but my favorite desserts are carrot cake and key lime pie.

4. What type of music do you listen to? 
I listen to all sorts of music, namely a lot of pop, rock, techno, trance, house, dubstep, alternative, and some Kpop. Rarely, do I listen to rap or country.

5. What is your favorite day of the week?
 Friday has always been my favorite day of the week. I was born on a Friday, too. :)

6. What is your favorite book?
Hmm… my favorite book. Probably, “Zink” by Cherie Bennett or “The Grounding for the Metaphysics of Morals” by Immanuel Kant or “Wuthering Heights”.

7. If you could have any character come and stay at your house for an entire month, who would it be?
Hmm… a character. Umm… Well this tends to vary on what I’m currently watching, but right now, I would probably have to say Mochizikun Kotaro from “Samurai High School” because well he is adorable, funny, and also possessed by a freaking 414 year old samurai.

8. If you had a genie that would grant you any three wishes, what would you wish for?
 1. Peace 2. Immortality 3. Immortality & happiness for my loved ones

9. Who is your favorite singer/band?
Pink Floyd & The Monkees, although I have grown really fond of 30STM, Bastille, & Florence + The Machine

10. What do you like to do to relax?
Watch TV, listen to music, write, play with my pets, be on Tumblr, text people, take photos, video edit.

11. If you could travel to any anime/manga/video game world, where would you go? 
“Vampire Knight” so I can hang out with Zero. ;)

Thank you again so much for tagging me and considering me as one of your 11! :)

Here are the new questions: 1. What is your favorite gemstone?

2. If you could go back in time & witness any historical event, what would it be?

3. Which is your poison: painting, drawing, reading, writing, or photographing?

4. Do you believe in miracles?

5. What thing from your childhood was the first thing you stopped believing in (i.e. the tooth fairy, Easter bunny, etc.)?

6. What is one thing about you that you think stands out from everyone else?

7. Do you believe in karma?

8. What is the best joke you’ve ever heard/told?

9. A favorite quote?

10. What has been (one of) the most (positively) memorable year for you of your life?

11. What do you believe happens after happily ever after?