#syn rant

[syngularitysyn]

Worked on Ceasefire for hours and all I have to show for it is 250 new words.

Why is finding the right words so haaaard.

The final chapter is at 1250 words and not a single orgasm has been had yet :\

[deadsynwalking]

You know what?

Don't bring the EDM scene to Turkey. No, seriously, don't. I hope it never gets here. For the love of all things holy, I hope it never, ever does go big here.

You wanna know why? Because we'll ruin it. 

I look at the festivals I've went to and the organization is fucking terrible. Most people don't even go to a concert or a festival or an event for the music or fun, they just go there to see if they could "get lucky". I've heard a group of fucking TEENAGERS, AGE BETWEEN 16-18, TALK ABOUT ME AND MY FRIEND SAYING THAT WE'D BE DRUNK BY THE NIGHT AND WE'D FUCK WITH THEM.

There is no essence of PLUR here. Let alone walking around with all the EDM/rave scene outfit, if you wear skinny jeans or a miniskirt or a short they'd fucking hit on you until you cry. I had that happen to a friend of mine, and gods know I was about to murder a ho.

And did I mention organization fuckery? Yeah. The only big thing we had was Sensation, and apparently that was a fuckfest itself, but;

Rock'n'Coke fucked up the entire line up. They always fuck up the line up. They're setting is god awful.  Sonisphere was never repeated.

See a pattern here?

That, and it's getting worse. People are being shot by the police, 7 people died and the 8th kid is still in a coma. The protests still continue, and the government is turning Turkey into a fucked up version of the Ottoman Empire, by fear mongering, shaming, disrespecting, and brute force. 

So I think about people like deadmau5 or skrillex coming along and I know I'd be fucking happy to see them live, but to be honest.. I don't want them to endure this shitfest. I don't want them to be disappointed, or treated badly, their stage fucking up or the sound fucking up, or the people being too dull, or see the country fucking falling apart because one man that's supposed to lead is taking a huge shit on us.

I'd love to be in the rave scene, I want to share kandi, dress up and dance my brains out, lose myself in the music and fly off to another dimension, but I rather live with the dissappoinment than letting the artists suffer.

[deadsynwalking]

"You don't look depressed."

Well, you don't look stupid, but I guess we can both be wrong.

[deadsynwalking]

Everytime Blizzard makes a thing.

There's always these weird, narrow minded people running around hating before even trying the thing out first. Or you know, reading, when it comes down to lore.

Whenever something new happens, in life, people resort to hating it.

Because hating is the cool kid thing to do.

Look, if it's not effecting your health or is in anyway harmful for you in general, change is actually a thing you need to experience first and determine later if it's a good or bad change, because sometimes it's hard to tell if a change is good right off the bat.

You move to a new city, suddenly you have no friends and it's a whole new, strange place. You automatically thing "oh wow, this sucks". But in time, you get used to it, and maybe even make more friends than ever, or meet the love of your life, or get the job opportunity that will boost your career up or.. who knows?

Experience it first.

Hate on it later.

Jesus are we like a 2 year old brat with temper tantrums, come on.

[deadsynwalking]

OH SON OF A FUCKING DICK FRY.

[deadsynwalking]

Rantfestival

So fuck everything, aye?

The plans I made for about a month just took a huge dick up it's ass, I bought a camp ticket so we could all stay the night with my payment from a small animation job, and the next thing I know is my friend here says she can't stay because she had a fit with her family.

Brilliant. So I call my other friend, who says he just got more work than he bargained for, so he may not even attend the thing at all, let alone camp.

I had a few more friends but one of them was a couple and they just broke up after a HUGE fit, which caused my friend -who had a fit with her parents- to go see one side of that couple so he wouldn't do something stupid.

So my camping tickets? Yeah, bye bye that side of the plans, since I don't have a tent of my own anymore. But that was okay up until the huge group I had attending had shit come up and I don't wanna show up there on my own, I don't even have a ride there, and even if I did get there like..

Festivals in Turkey aren't like what they are like in European countries, let's say. It does matter who you're coming with and who you'll go with, because chances are you may get yourself in a troublesome situation, being a woman specifically.

I know it sounds childish, but I'm just bummed about the whole planning going to waste because I understand having work showing up, but the relationship issue is severely stupid so it sort of tries my patience.

Uuuugh.

[deadsynwalking]

You know what. Screw your "comics are not for girls" bullshit. The next time I go cosplaying, I'm going to grab a binder and cosplay Spawn. Not She-Spawn, no, the real deal. I'm going to build a freaking suit and be Iron Man. I'm going to be Joker and I'm going to rock that shit.

I'm going to read my comics and be happy. I'm going to draw my own comics with what skills I have and I'm sure as shit going to rock that too. I'm going to draw my favourite super ladies and lads, draw them in what I deem "better" armor and write about them without derailing the true story.

A man can be weak. A woman can be strong. We're all human beings and we all die the same. So suck it up with your superiority complex and go build some real ego instead of trying to boost it up by dominating over others, you awful little shit.

[deadsynwalking]

Con troubles

Now I have to take my little sister too and I just

I don't mind but

This means I have to make something for her too

in about 10 days.

And she's stupidly brave at times that just makes me head desk like

Asking questions that has been answered already and hung up somewhere everyone can see. It's called a FAQ. It's in a language she can read and understand. It's somewhere she can see but no she fishes the answer to her feet instead of researching.

God help me this is going to be a long trip.

I'm already troubled with my "cosplay" as it is, I have to worry about two others and my own self-esteem since names like Kamui will be there and no matter how many times people tell me EVERYONE STARTS SOMEWHERE my brain is like

YOU'RE 25 YEARS OLD, WOMAN. YOU SHOULD START SOMEWHERE HIGHER.

I'm gonna go cry somewhere.