I am not an alterhuman but I am a kindopath! (If you dont know what a kindopath is look it up on tumblr, Google won't really show results because it's a new term and not a popular or known one!! Hehe)
But I have alterhuman friends, and I noticed they get super happy when they see a plush in a store that reminds them of their kintype, and seeing them happy makes me so happy :3
The Weeping Doe: my dream experiences as a naturehearted
[Alt : The Weeping Doe: my dream experiences as a naturehearted]
As a naturehearted, I have many recurring dreams involving theriform animals. I don't think we can call it a shift, because I don't feel like I'm part of their species when that happens, but it's still very intense.
These dreams come in the middle of my sleep, when thoughts and images are blurry, fast, and don't make much sense. Suddenly, everything becomes calmer, more realistic, and I find myself face to face with one of them. Generally, these are large dogs (especialy in my childhood)or deers/does, but I have already come face to face with a lynx, a small bird (probably a finch), a small owl, flying insects,... The most intense ones take place in the forest.
Lately I've been seeing a lot more deer and does.
I remember dreaming of walking slowly in the forest, off the beaten path (even though I don't usually do this when I'm not asleep -to preserve ecosystems-, it seems more natural to me to wander off the beaten path, as a therian). The forest seems very green, very fertile, and I saw this sort of green mist that surrounds me every time I dream of a forest, a bit like I was cut off from the world, like it was just the forest and me.
Suddenly, I saw him. A large, proud stag with magnificent antlers, on the forest path. He turned his head towards me, unafraid as long as I kept my distance. We stayed there observing each other, until my sleep resumed its course of blurry and confused images.
A few months later, I also dreamed of a doe. She was at the edge of a wood; I was walking with my mother and sister when I saw her. The same thing happened; everything became calm and clear. As soon as she saw us, she turned around and started to run away but stopped abruptly and turned her head towards me.
It was now or never.
I began to move forward slowly, descending the short slope that separated us. I was able to touch her muzzle and I swear she was as soft as a baby rabbit. She also approached and I saw that she... was crying? She lay down on the ground, in my arms. I don't really know why, but I was crying too.
Nothing was around us anymore, we were alone, crying together. We stayed like that for a long time. I can't explain it clearly, it was like we had known each other for a long time, like we were finally reunited. It was one of the most powerful dreams I've ever had, and it was about a doe in tears.
When I woke up I had completely forgotten about this story, but a few hours later it suddenly came back to me, and I spent my day thinking about it. Sometimes I feel a pang of sadness when I talk about it. I wish I could have seen her again, just once, because I felt at home with her, I felt safe.
I've wanted to talk about my naturehearted experiences for a long time, because -hearted and -kith identities are often considered less important than a -kin identity, but that's really wrong! In my case, I even consider my therianthropy to come from my naturheart-ness. I hope that this post will give us a little more visibility and will encourages some beings to share their experiences on this topic too, because oh boy, this is so interesting !
(english isn't my first language so I'm sorry if some sentences are confusing ^^')
