Hunter: 😍I’m Hunter Clarington and believe me the pleasure is all mine.
Hunter: I adore you too. I know it’s not always easy or comfortable but then I think the end effect could be losing you and I really don’t want that either.
Hunter [deleted]: Please don’t fall in love with someone else.
Hunter: You love with everything you have, while your immediate circle has been the same, life and experience has told you the world is not. You’re dating someone who’s experience has been quite the opposite. I think it’s understandable that you sometimes have concerns. But yes I think it’s wonderful that you don’t want to hold anything back with me. Maybe I could learn from you here. I keep thinking about how to be worthy of you but as long as it’s you and me, for you and me, I think we’re going to be okay.
Hunter: If I come to SF for the holidays maybe we can find a beach there and do just that.
Hunter: Those are all good ideas. I’ll see what works best. I used a couple of extra days after thanksgiving since I thought I wouldn’t be going to Paris and knee jerk reaction after the break up was that I’d need to find somewhere else to live. But we do get a substantial time off.
Hunter: Good, that’s the plan.
Hunter: The point is that I’m not bringing you back to the penthouse. Not while we all adjust to this. As for my office. Let me butter up Catie and send her on a nice leisurely lunch when I can lock the door and not worry about her key.
Hunter: I’m not a big nickname guy either. Kind of didn’t like them really; until Seb. Funny how he does that huh? You are the only one who would ever admit to seeing me beautiful like that Jay. I think it’s the most fitting.
Hunter: Or one of us goes with him. Or — he calls Marc.😣
Jay: I'm waiting for Mattie while he's in Taekwondo and I must look like an idiot, grinning from ear to ear because I just got official confirmation that I now have this phenomenal, love of a man for a boyfriend. I feel like a teenager but oh well - I'm just so happy. Finding someone like you, in New York City, it's just a dream.
Jay: You honestly continue to amaze me. You don't think of yourself as someone who has a lot of facility with emotions but you're being so insightful of my fears. I appreciate you thinking about it like that.
Jay: The temptation is to say the cliché, that you're more than worthy, you're too good for me. But I think that's unhealthy. I think we should think of each other as exactly the same worth - not the same person (that would be weird), but the same kind of person - good, flawed, complicated. A fit for each other. You have nothing to be worried about - you're exactly what I've been hoping for.
Jay: Aw San Francisco beaches are cold even in the summer, and even in Santa Cruz, where the beaches are warmest, it would probably be too chilly. But we can find a firepit at the beach and see if snuggling by it will do.
Jay: You and Seb had the same knee jerk reaction about Paris, of course. 😕
Jay: When I had lunch with him yesterday it was quick but he actually seemed to be doing well. He had more energy, was smiling more. And he said he had a date, did he tell you? He didn't want to talk about the guy with me but he said it was just a coffee date and it was probably nothing. But I don't think so! 🙂
Jay: Glad you have the logistics sewn up on Operation Office Makeout Session. I appreciate you going to any trouble. We don't have to do it if you're not in the mood.
Jay: Ok, Beautiful. It /is/ the most fitting.
Jay: Oh let's not ruin this nice textversation by talk of Marc. He's never been a friend of mine, if that helps. Not really. He's always been nice to me, but we've just never "clicked."
Jay: [deleted] Also Seb wouldn't let him near me.