#t.o.y

[talesofdark]

Was very happy to come across this album in a music shop in Łódź.

[dustofinsanity]

I want what my cats have... 🥺

[dustofinsanity]

The girls squad. 💜

[jenology-archive]

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊᴇɴᴏ,

you’re eighteen internationally now, and I’m beyond proud of you coming this far. you’ve hit a milestone in your life where you’re one step ahead of adolescence, one step closer to adulthood and the future you’re paving the way for. I would tell you that you’ve grown up, that you really aren’t a kid anymore, but I won’t because you’ve told me and everyone else that you’re in no rush to do so.

you’re the epitome of many things: radiance, talent, flamboyance, humor, and joy to name a few, but today you’re the epitome of youth. youth is notoriously associated with adolescence, the days you live as a child or teen where you live life apologetically and try to have fun while you’re at it. but that’s not just youth, it’s something you’ve sacrificed to get your future. it’s something you didn’t get to experience to the fullest, something I wish you still had time to experience... but is it ever too late to experience that form of youth? perhaps you’re even experiencing that form of youth right now. even though you’re an idol, you’ve said it’s not a “job” for you. It’s an experience where you’ve been given the opportunity to enjoy with other people, and if that can’t be defined as youth then I might as well cast these words aside. you are youthful, you always have been and you always will be, because youth is also a state of mind and that’s what you’ve taught me. I define youth as something we’re experiencing to this day and every day beyond, all the hardships, accomplishments, and emotions we experience. youth is something you’ve given me and many others, and youth is something I want to give you in return. we’re living youthfully, and no matter the distance between us I’m grateful we’re living youthfully together.

the world is continuously advancing, admittedly it’s a little cruel as well, but despite it all you’re a part of it. you might not realize this, but you're truly one of the wonders of the world. you’re wonderful, and you contribute to this planet we live on in a way that makes it more beautiful. in this cruel world of ours that still has yet to defeat you (I hope a time like that never comes), you are still you. you, with a brilliant mind and passionate heart, a beautiful face and countless amount of talents, you are such a wholesome and stellar person and I’ll never be able to fully convey how much you mean to me or how I’m so grateful for you. your future will be filled with youth, just as you are filled with youth, and I can’t wait to see how it unravels. 

ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴄʏʀɪɴɴᴇ. — 𝓉𝑒𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓉𝒽.

[jenology-archive]

xii. my sunrise —

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊᴇɴᴏ, the time is now where I’m thankful to know you. at least, from the standpoint of an adoring fan. I could recognize you a mile away at this point, and I associate you and your name with other wonders of the world because you are also one of them. I can’t foresee the future, but I have a vague idea, and there will be days to come where you and I will be happier. the time we spend now will be worth it, and I don’t regret a single moment where I dedicated my time to you. even now as your day comes to an end, the world lives on and so will you (so will I, thank you for that). happy birthday to you, the love of my life and light of my world, thank you for being born.

ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴄʏʀɪɴɴᴇ.

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[jenology-archive]

xi. violet —

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊᴇɴᴏ, someday we’ll collide, blue and pink turned violet. I have no expectations to be tied to you romantically, to have a relationship beyond a friendship (that is, if we were to have a relationship at all), but I’ve always had hope of crossing paths with you someday. one day I’ll have the opportunity to tell you all of these things in person, face to face (or if that isn’t possible, I’ll always have that notebook dedicated to you). love needs not to be reciprocated, it merely needs to exist: my love for you is eternal (the opposite of my love for the color violet), and I’ll never stop loving you. ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴄʏʀɪɴɴᴇ.

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[jenology-archive]

x. pink —

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊᴇɴᴏ, nowadays I say that pink is my favorite color. similarly, I tend to say that you’re my favorite as well. my favorite member, my favorite idol, my favorite person. nowadays you’re all I think about, it must be evident with the rosy pink that taints my cheeks. it’s a happier life for me now: it’s sweet, it’s gentle, it’s meaningful, and worth it above all. I’m pink on the opposite side of the spectrum, and the passionate pink I’ve become was achievable thanks to you. ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴄʏʀɪɴɴᴇ.

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[jenology-archive]

ix. blue —

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊᴇɴᴏ, once upon a time you said blue was your favorite color. I’m not quite sure if that’s still the case, but I’ll remember nonetheless (and eagerly await for you to update us on everything you favor nowadays). once upon a time, I used to describe my sadness as blue. nowadays, blue is a color I associate with you: it’s vivid, it’s beautiful, it’s comforting, it holds more than meets the eye. you’re far more blue than I’ll ever be, but your kind of blue will always be most brilliant (and never bad). ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴄʏʀɪɴɴᴇ.

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