Cat is Out of the Bag
@taichitheaudacious continue from here (x)
Takeru bit his lower lip. Why hadn’t he told Taichi that he quit college and went into modeling? Why did he keep his lover in the dark like this for so long? It wasn’t even him telling Taichi. Taichi had found out from magazines. This was how it all started. It wasn’t like Takeru was trying to keep anything from him. Maybe he was just embarrassed at it or maybe it was because he thought Taichi wouldn’t approve.
He lifted up his hand and pushed his glasses up on his face more as they had started sliding down. Taichi had a right to be mad at him. He would have been mad at Taichi if he was keeping secrets.
“I just...” He paused for a moment. “I was going to tell you... I just didn’t know how. I thought that you wouldn’t want me working and that... I don’t know you wouldn’t approve of the choice of modeling? I really don’t know why i didn’t tell you at first. I guess I was nervous about how you would react.” He let out a soft sigh. “You have a right to be mad at me. I shouldn’t have kept it from you so long and pretended I was still in school. But sometimes it feels like you don’t want me to be independent and just rely on you... And I don’t want to keep doing that Tai. I didn’t want you to maybe tell me to quit or to not go for the job opportunity.”
He sat down on the couch before he went on. “I didn’t want you to maybe tell me that you make more than enough to support us both. I feel useless when i just sit around here and even when I was going to college I began not really knowing what I wanted to get my degree in and then I just felt more crappy. You don’t want me to fall back into my depression so I’ve been trying to do things that make me feel better. I understand these are no excuses on why I didn’t tell you. But let’s be honest Tai... You can sometimes be...well controlling.” Tkaeru looked down for a moment. “Besides I didn’t really tell anyone about it. If I wasn’t going to tell you, I wasn’t going to tell anyone else They just found out because of the magazines too. I’m sorry. I’ll start telling you things like this. i didn’t mean to make you feel the way you do. I was just unsure how to tell you.”














