#talitha speaks

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Reflections

(Conditioned to Judge)

I was conditioned to judge. Growing up all I knew was scrutiny, judgement, nit-picking and meticulousness. This has been a blessing and a curse. I can pick apart a person at glance. Deeper, within a few minutes of meeting them. My eyes trained to meticulously scan a person from head to toe, noticing the slightest nuance, mishap, mis-step, nervous movement, breath change etc. My mind laser focused, dissecting every detail I take in. Categorizing, analyzing and labelling. Subtle-unsubtle, obvious-not so obvious. Things a person tries to hide, things they are self conscious about. Certain cues will tell me more than I ever asked for. I can read them like a book they had no idea they had written. It’s like a wishing well, and all of a person's life can be poured into me. Just by a meeting. Like a skilled cat. Stealthy circling their prey, waiting for just the right moment. Only it’s learning them and moving with them like a sacred dance done with their soul in the void space. The between. Only our ether beings know of the true dynamics. They may sense me in the physical, but aren’t aware of what’s happening. The engagement of energies. The exchange of energy. The life force ringing in my ears like the sweetest melody. Radiating off of my skin like electricity. The beautiful dance between the hunter and it’s prey. Except, I am only looking for someone. ~Talitha~

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Wet

High romance today A way within my means.  Deep love shared with another Must be something in these genes. 

Caressing of the core Lights the fire within. Beg and plead for more.  Revealing your greatest sin.

Wade in or float The water is serene. Removing your layers True you coming clean. No life jackets or boat Waves meant to soothe. Droping pride to invoke You've nothing to prove. 

Renewed night or light of say. Minds made of fluid Are easier to sway. Calming your fears Pestulence at bay. Take your time in the reveal All will go your way. 

~Talitha~

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Muse

Connect with me on the winds of time. Feel the waves body - soul and mind. Don't worry babe, you're doing just fine. Hearing your whispers on our private line.

~Talitha~

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Choosing Time

Could I say the reasons I want you are anything but selfish. The end goal. The outcome. Must be some sort of self gratification. Else - why? Why would I.. Why would you let me..

By design yet finds the time The silly fantasies recalled to mind.. Or am I blind? The ways in which our magic works is endless. The drip in the ocean. The spark in the volcano. The breeze in the storm And the leaf on the tree.

Am I to cower though I know The power of touch. Hell, the power of an idea Can pique all of your senses, Yet, I'm here. Holding onto this idea all of this makes sense to you, in this way.

Only I know, it can't.

Confusion and fear set in when I remind you of yourself. Hiding your eyes - twisting your mouth or in your disguise. No rules apply. I'm waiting for you. and you know it, don't you?

It slows you down even more To think you've something to live up to. And that you do, but not for me. I know you and You know we. Smog, lace or haze Kept at bay for days. Seven by Seven you're mine and that's how it stays.

Not to possess you you're free as a bird. Hearts get a pardon Whispering words. Maybe stop, hear fear of sounding absurd. Tell tale or fated True Love comes in thirds.

~Talitha~

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My Friend Darkness

They can have my darkness if they want it. If that's what they need.  It can be theirs.

What they think  is I am holding her hand following blind into the darkness. See, She is me and I am her and We are Three.  Nothing can come between this Trinity. 

Thinking they want her so bad.  Tempting me. Provoking me. I can set her free. 

But please remember darkness envelops all she sees.  So though she resides with me as we are Three. She will be one with you. Enshrouding your hue.  Distorting your view.  Darkness throughout all you knew.  And her release is yours to keep as it is forever  waking life and sleep.

You see we are friends now.  We understand each other deep.  She is the one that showed me where to seek light when she came for me.  A Love like this did not come cheap. 

She has walked with me for as long as I can remember.  Reminding me as a small child she would be with me forever. 

So when she comes your way know she will be a part of you, not me.  Your request was simply 'set her free'.

When she comes knocking at your door know I am sending only Love.  For she will be your cool breeze when you need to see the forest through the trees.  When your life choices bring you to your knees. She will be there.  My friend, Darkness. 

~Talitha~

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When I close my eyes I see you. I have felt your every sorrow as if it were my own. I breathe with you, when silence is what you need. Never having to part your lips, your eyes tell me everything you're afraid to say. I see behind your heart. I feel your storms on my skin. When you're lost inside your head, trying to work out every detail. Your tepid pulsings tell me when to hold you and cool your fire.

When you feel alone in the world, you've always had me - even when we're apart. Every tear shed - I taste in my heart. I bleed for you - because I know the battles you have fought. When the pain comes, inside I carry you and continue your walk. Tandem or hand in hand. Neighbors or distant land. You're never alone. I know just how to make you feel me. Next to you, inside you, completely.

Your whole life - you've known I was there. With you always. I've been there. Right there with you.

Feared me your entire life, yet I see you - and you know. In the shadows - as you close your eyes. Behind the mirror - under the bed. I Am You. I Am your life. I Am in your head. Who do you think I Am - that you fear me yet know in your heart you need me. Your incessant fear of being seen keeps me from you fully. I know you better than you know yourself and you deny me with all of your might. Let me move you.

Take a carriage ride for a change. Let me hold your hand on this journey. Humans require connection. - Don't fear what you feel. Deep inside - you know I have been with you for eternity. You can't hide from what we have. No person, passion or poison could ever stop that. This connection we have scares you - only because you fear what we can do together. Are you afraid of your own power or the power of connecting with another. Fully.

Taking you to see my way isn't necessary. You want it. Deep down. Accepted. Ssshhhaking with the press of a button. Marionette shoes pitter patter like a school child. Waves of tears knowing; not sadness. Love was all you ever needed.

~Talitha~