#tarasylnin lavellan

[tessa1972]

My new BROTP is making nonsense again and Iove it 😂😂😂

Dorian finally has beauty, grace and wit by his side❣

(The Sims 4 models by @ba-kalia and moi, original character Tarasyl'nin by @tarasylnin-lavellan )

[tarasylnin-lavellan]

ITS FAN ART TIME

I dont know who pissed off Tara but they BETTER RUN

my lovely @w-h-4-t made this for Tarasyl’nin I am never NOT flattered when people draw my Tara I love this 💜

[tessa1972]

A tiny miniature of "The new guy". Dedicated to my beloved friend @tarasylnin-lavellan ❤

Out of the blue 

Well, it was not really planned to spend much time outside Tilani Ranch. They could eat comfortably at home, Maria cooked excellently and Dorian and David would have liked to cook together to show their gratitude to the hostess. 

But Mae was a Dallas personality, a lady of the world, she loved fancy restaurants and talking to people of all stripes. 

David had been able to meet Mae at Abacus back then, it was a revelation for him: the lady, the ambience, the food. Pure madness for a country bumpkin like Trevelyan!

Professor Tilani knew every corner of the city, every museum, every restaurant, every location. She knew where to go to be seen and also where to go almost incognito.

"He is excited. Will be fine." Mae patted Dorian's hand. He sat opposite her and kept glancing towards the toilets. 

"We have so much to talk about, Dorian. I miss you here! I miss musing with you and going out to dinner so much. Weren't the old days wonderful?" Maevaris' smile was divine, Dorian melted away and good memories poured down on him like warm summer rain. 

Before he could say anything back, someone suddenly addressed him.

"Dorian Pavus? Dorian, is that you?"

The striking and beautiful female voice snapped Dorian out of his thoughts.

"Pavus?" Thundered loudly after him. 

Dorian knew that voice too, after all.

Lord in heaven - it was Bull and Tarasyl'nin! 

To elaborate in detail: It was Tarasyl'nin WITH Bull!

As if shot out of a cannon, Dorian jumped up from his chair and turned in the direction of the voices. 

Tara ran up to him and grabbed his face with both hands. She kissed him on the lips, nothing and no one could have stopped her. Then they both embraced and held each other tightly without another word. 

Ifan stood a little distance away and remained rooted to the spot with his mouth open. Maevaris looked first at the giant with the eye patch, then at the couple who were still holding each other tightly. She began to grin.

A few moments later, Tarasyl'nin and Ifan sat down at Maevaris' and Dorian's table. They immediately started chatting.

"Bubbles, how are you doing? You look great!" Tara's eyes lit up like the purest crystals.

Bull was still in some sort of shock, but before Dorian could reply, the man with the eye patch said, "Bubbles? THAT'S Bubbles?? Wait! What?"

"Long story, we'll find time for it later. So, meeting you and Maevaris here is pure madness! I'm so happy, Bubbles!" The elf-like beauty moved closer to Pavus until their shoulders touched.

"I have to wash the sweat off my forehead first, excuse me." Chow stood up and walked towards the restrooms.

A few moments later, Bull stood in front of the fancy mirror of the posh restaurant's washstand and looked at his face. 

Bubbles was Pavus - how crazy was that!

Suddenly the door to one of the booths behind him opened and a medium-sized guy in a dapper suit came out. 

"Now somebody fry me a stork! Jesus, Trevelyan, YOU? HERE?? The world's a bloody small place!!!" Bubbled out the giant who couldn't believe his own eyes and the reflection in the mirror in front of him. He whirled around.

"Bull?" The man behind him took two steps back and now stood with his back to the cabin door. His eyes were bulging wide and he swallowed hard. 

"Gotcha! Dave, old nose, what are you doing here? Isn't this place a bit too ... freaky for you and Kai? Where is he then? Heyyyyy.... Wait a minute, now don't tell me... you've made out in the toilets?" Ifan's look was a mixture of curiosity, amazement and respect.

David just cleared his throat and shook his head. Slowly he walked in Bull's direction and stood next to him and began to wash his hands.

"Yo, dude! Believe it or not, Dorian and Maevaris are here too! I mean Bubbles and Mae of course! How funny and surreal is this show going to get!" Chow laughed and slapped David on the back. 

"Bubbles? Why are you calling him Bubbles?" Trevelyan didn't understand anything anymore. 

"I'm sleeping with the woman who wanted to marry him then - wink wink." 

"I'm on the edge of my seat, I'm going to puke again." And Trevelyan's face went horribly white.

Bull grabbed his colleague by the arm and led him to the exit of the gents.

They went out and stopped in front of the door. There was a kind of curtain wall there to visually separate the toilets from the restaurant proper. From there they could both see directly to Dorian's and Professor Tilani's table without being immediately spotted themselves.

Deputy Chow whispered, "Just look! The woman next to Pavus is my Penina! A beauty and my lifesaver and Dorian's best friend from childhood and...."

David could no longer concentrate on his colleague's words. 

He saw these three beautiful people sitting there at the table. The atmosphere in the restaurant was so classy and chic, the clothes of the three people were as if they matched each other, they were talking, they were giggling, the gorgeous woman with the dark hair was snuggling very close to Bubbles as if they were siblings and Mae was confidently patting the delicate and big hand of the man David would have died for with a smile on his lips. 

Everything was so coherent, everything was perfect. Dorian seemed so free and happy here with his friends. 

Trevelyan's heart warmed, but then he realised that he would never be like those people over there. He could never offer Dorian this life here.

"With Chow, then. He's a good man, hardworking and conscientious and remarkably tall and also a bit scary and okay okay... admittedly very attractive." Dorian's voice was pure velvet, he spoke softly and level-headedly, yet also with such a radiant smile that it was pure joy just to listen to him. 

"A tangled and long story, wild and a little crazy - you know me, Bubbles." The woman next to Pavus had such an engaging charm that Dorian could not take his eyes off her. 

Maevaris looked at them both sympathetically and listened to their conversation. But then her gaze wandered over to the toilets. For a moment she felt as if she had seen two men glancing surreptitiously around the little wall, but perhaps she had been mistaken and somehow she did not really miss Trevelyan and the giant. 

"You two were such a cute couple even then - the dynamic duo, yes, a dream team you were... hahaha." The blonde laughed and Tara and Dorian joined in the giggling.

"Hey, where are you going, bonehead? Wrong way! Aren't you going to say hello to Shadow, D.P. and the Prof? And I'll knock you off your socks if you don't tell my Penina at least one of your best jokes!" Bull said cheerfully as he held David by the arm. 

"I need to get some air!" David tore himself away and ran off.

"But you forgot Kai! While no one knows where, but ... Jesus, Dave!" Only now did Ifan rein in his voice. He cleared his throat, shook himself for a moment and then walked quickly towards the table of his acquaintances. 

"Sorry, but here I am again. Shadow, we should get back to our table now too." Said Chow conspicuously gallantly.

"Oh, come on, join us for a minute. The chair is free, isn't it?" Tarasyl'nin asked.

"No, it isn't." Answered Dorian and looked towards the toilets again.

"Dorian, you won't believe who I just met? Guess what, you won't guess!" Bull's grin was wide and confident.

"Trevelyan, right? And where is he now?" Pavus asked as if in passing. 

"Well, this is just the bad luck of having cops as friends, they just guess everything, spoilsports! Hahaha... and to answer your question, he ran outside." Deputy Chow laughed and shook his head. 

"Go sit in my seat, Chow! Be right back!" And Dorian jumped up and ran out of the posh shed at a fast pace.

The tip of the cigarette glowed softly, fine swirls of smoke rising into the cool air of the evening. David looked at the glow stick and sniffed. He closed his eyes. 

"Here you are! Are you still feeling sick, David?" 

That voice, David got goosebumps. 

Dorian ran to his beloved and leaned next to him against the wall. They were in the car park of the restaurant, it was large and surrounded by high hedges and walls, only the barrier offered a little insight to the noble cars waiting there for their owners. 

"I'm going to get a taxi or we'll be blown, Bull is already looking for Kai." Trevelyan spoke softly, sadness in his voice. 

"Nonsense! You have to meet Stormy!" 

"You can invite me to your wedding!"

"Are you offended, David? What's wrong?" Pavus became concerned and reached for David's hand. 

"I'm sorry, I'm just not feeling well. I want you to have a good time. I'm spoiling everything. Your girlfriend is so beautiful, all your friends are adorable." The deputy sighed. 

"You're right, I like to surround myself with beautiful and magnificent people. Don't mind if they are smart too. David, I've never had many friends, I'm grateful for each one and their longstanding loyalty. People may call me self-centred, selfish and bizarre, but friendship means a lot to me."

Dorian was still holding David's left hand. 

"I like having you as a friend, Dori, and I hope you know how much our friendship means to me." Spoke Trevelyan, raising his arm and kissing the back of Dorian's hand. 

"Then come with me, buddy! You must meet my Stormy now!" 

Pavus ran off, simply dragging his colleague by the hand behind him. 

Arriving at the restaurant, David released himself from the coroner's grip. They walked one after the other to their table where their friends were talking cheerfully. 

"You found Dave, good, but where is Kai now?" Chow asked, still wondering. 

"David's not here with Kai, he..."

"Dorian, please..." Trevelyan interrupted him. 

"Ssssh, David is here in Dallas with me, Ifan." Said Pavus calmly with a pinch of pride in his voice. 

"Is he sick?" Ifan didn't understand anything anymore. 

"Sick? Why sick? Do you have to be sick to be with me?" Dorian put his hands on his hips. 

Tara and Mae followed the confused conversation in silence and wonder. 

David stood behind Dorian and blushed.

"Together? Huh?" Bull's questioning expression showed his absolute confusion at best. 

Suddenly, service staff from the restaurant approached.

"Excuse me, but is there any problem, Professor Tilani?" Asked a young man in livery.

"Everything is fine, thank you. The reunion of old friends, you understand." Mae's enchanting smile put the staff at ease and they moved away. 

"You know what, my dears? We'll eat first and then meet you at the ranch. How about you two? Are you free for brunch tomorrow morning?" 

... and who could resist Maevaris Tilani's invitations ....

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"You've been silent for most of the evening, David. Is everything alright?" Dorian asked when they arrived in their room.

"Yes, everything is fine. I just feel sick, everything will be better tomorrow. Don't worry about it darling." David smiled but his eyes didn't show the happy cheeky flash that Dorian liked about him.

"Maybe you really do need to see a doctor!"

"I'm certainly not wasting a single second of our holiday together on a visit to the doctor, forget it! I'll be fine soon!" Assured the deputy. 

Dorian shrugged his shoulders and began to undress himself. 

"Tarasyl'nin is so beautiful. You must tell me more about her. I remember you telling little stories here and there from childhood and there was a Stormy in it. Now I can finally picture who she is. So gorgeous! You... you love her very much, right?" David's voice was so deep and full, Dorian listened to the singsong of it and thought of Tarasyl'nin and the good times. 

Pavus was in thoughts and so he did not answer. And Trevelyan did not ask further, he was glad that his beloved was happy, that was all that mattered to him.

(OC Tarasyl'nin by @tarasylnin-lavellan , OC Kai by @darth-salem-emperor-of-earth )

[tessa1972]

Something to smile for my beloved @tarasylnin-lavellan 💋

(Art of Tara by @tarasylnin-lavellan , art of Dorian unfortunately irretrievable deleted by the artist I've ordered the commission)

[tarasylnin-lavellan]

The Space Between Breaths

A short bit of writing for after Tara loses her arm. Lots of grief and trauma ahead ouchies 

Tara had come back barely alive, she had staggered back through the great mirror. Her left arm was gone, torn to shreds by the magic that had ripped through her. They had done their best to keep her alive. She had torn a strip from her clothing, tying a hasty tourniquet through the agony. She had struggled back through the mirror, falling as soon as she was through. Dorian had screamed in alarm, rushing to Tara's side. "Hold on love, hold on will get you to help I promise." Bull had carried her back, doing his best not to jostle her. "Shit, shit, shit" the litany tumbled from the qunari's mouth.

Cullen had felt his heart turned to ice when he heard it. A great alarm had gone up in the castle people were shouting and running, his dog was barking. Cullen has sprinted for the Eluvian, his breath seized in his chest when he saw her. Tarasyl'nin lay like a crumpled doll on the ground, healers surrounding her. "Tara!" Cullen tried to run forward, only to be seized by Iron bull. "UNHAND ME!" Cullen’s voice was a hoarse roar. "I can't, you know that Commander" Bull's voice rumbled in his chest regret tinging the words. "She is barely hanging on, if you interrupt the healers...." He let the world's trail off not needing to finish the thought. Dorian's hand gripped Cullen shoulder, "she'll make it, she has to." Dorian's voice was shaking with worry and doubt nearly panicking. Cullen felt hot tears in his eyes, his breath hitched his chest. This was so unfair, he had only just married her, the Maker couldn't do this! Dorian wrapped his arms around Cullen, tears streaming down his own face. The two men held on to each other like life rafts in a storm. Each of them was tormented by a deep grief and dread, a cloying void that tried to swallow them. 

Decades seem to pass as time slowed in the sickly way of the grieving. The healers worked frantically, but the damage wasn't just her arm the power had been arching through her burning her inside. By nightfall they had gotten her stabilized, barely living. They transferred her into a small room, her friends and allies gathered around the door taking turns guarding it. Cullen and Dorian stayed by her side, if one left the other stayed they would not leave her alone. Tara's breath was shallow and faint and Cullen felt his heart stop between every breath. He wondered if it would be her last every time, if she would finally succumb to mortality.

Time lost all meaning for the pair, the only measure that counted was the slow shallow breaths in the room. Dorian began to care for Cullen bringing him food and drink, as Cullen wouldn't leave her side. Dorian loathed himself for his lack of healing ability, if only he had been gifted in that way maybe she wouldn't be at deaths door right now. He knew his beloved sister though, she would want him to take care of Cullen. So he diligently kept the man going, hoping that when Tara woke she would find both of them whole and healthy waiting for her.

Cullen prayed softly begging the maker to not take her from him, he hadn't prayed like this since the circle, since he had been trapped in that place. His prayers lost their coherence, degrading into a simple repeated refrain. "One more time Tara, come back to me one more time." His world had shrunk to that single room, and it's silent occupant. Hours turned into days and days turned into weeks the healers kept her body alive but she had been so badly damaged that it would take time. The healers started to say that they didn't know she would wake.

Cullen felt a red rage rise in his chest " she is coming back" he snarled at the healers. He lashed out at them like a wounded lion blinded by his pain and the healers backed away from him. Dorian's gentle hand was on his shoulder in a moment "she will return" his voice was Stern and cultured as he stared at the healers warning them not to say it again. He needn't have bothered the look and Cullen's eyes was enough to turn a dragon to stone. Cullen's desperation grew with every passing hour he prayed "come back to me come back one more time Tara please." He ate food mechanically like a soldier, not because he was hungry but because he knew he had to. On the beginning of the third week the dawn light streamed through the window. The golden beams lit up Taras pale face, Dorian had stepped out of the room to speak with the healers. He prayed quietly next to her bed kneeling as if it were an altar. Come back Tara, one more time, just one more time." He would give anything to hear her again, the world could have burned for all he cared. His eyes were closed as he prayed, then he heard it her breathing changing.

His head snapped up, hearing the strengthening of the rhythm. A voice weak and hoarse "ma'atish...." Had he truly heard that?! He felt like it was a dream was she really could she be awake? He rushed to her, a desperation that he had never known filling him. Her eyelids flickered and he held his breath, her eyes opened slowly still glazed with incomprehension.

Cullen felt a relief that he could never describe it ripped through his heart like pain. A ragged Sob tore through his chest, he wept like a child. Her voice still ragged and weak whispered "do not cry ma vhenan, I am here." Her eyes seemed unable to focus, but her trembling right hand reached for him following the sound of his voice he grasped it in his own pressing it against his cheek. Words failed him, his throat seizing with raw emotion. Dorian had heard Cullen's weeping, he had thought that it meant the worst he charged into the room eyes frantic. When his eyes landed on Tara, when he saw her blinking a breath that he felt he had been holding since they had gone back through the mirror whooshed out of him.

He's staggered to his sister's side, slumping to his knees all of the strength that he had been holding seemed to rush out of him at once. " I am here darling, I'm right here." Tara's ear twitched faintly, "Isa?" "Yes my sister, it's me. Don't you dare ever do anything like this again, do you hear me?" A faint breath of laughter escaped from Tara "I returned from the dead and the first thing you do is scold me?" Dorian laughed "well someone needs to, and I doubt your husband will."

[tessa1972]

The new dream team:

💞 Tarasyl'nin and Dorian aka Stormy and Bubbles 💞

(OC Tarasyl'nin by @tarasylnin-lavellan , model of Dorian Pavus by @ba-kalia )

[tarasylnin-lavellan]

I Take No Pride

In the things that I will do, in what is to be done, in what must be done. It is a spiral; the leaf circling the whirlpool till the water is its life.

And know this for I am grief. The coming shadow that lingers at your doorway.

Ebalasha

So yea this is what I see when I read Ebalasha lol. That's a Flemeth quote from DA2 which honestly is a great one. Fingers to the keys and b o o m once more. Lol. Hope you like it😊😊

Thank you! ❤️ @w-h-4-t this woman is Soo talented I keep trying to wrap my head around that Tarasyl'nin actually has music of her own and I CANT the pounding dread! YES!

[tarasylnin-lavellan]

The Storm Calls My Name

Aka spontaneous Tara song. Just sit down, think of Tara and play whatever comes to mind.

What came to mind was rolling thunder, restrained yet wild, an eagle circles overhead as the storm rages on. Parts peaceful, parts tumultuous, an ever screaming echo over the lands; "For I am the Heart of the Storm".

Hope you like it lol👍

This was given to me by my incredible fan @w-h-4-t , I am absolutely speechless. So much love and soul went into creating a unique piece of music. I am truly blessed and grateful for this priceless gift, something in my heavy heart healed today.