you've done fitzsimmons through the ages, but would you do little jemma? (bonus challenge, little fitz even though we've only ever seen a picture of little fitz)
Oh, I like that idea! I could do the two of them young together, though I’m having a hard time picturing what Jemma would wear. Jeans? A little cardigan? I’ll have to think on this one!
MOLLY YOU TRIP ON SOLID FUCKING GROUND. YOU SPLASH SODA IN YOUR OWN EYE ON A REGULAR BASIS. YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE DISASTER AND I LOVE YOU.
Now for Fitz.
Fitz is waaaay arrogant. He expects people to just forgive him on a whim because they said so. He expects people to trust him when everything he’s done has broken that trust. He’s screwed up in the head but he can’t admit it, he’s desperate to be loved but has no idea how to show it, and he’s pretty goddamn rude to his grandson who, frankly, has done nothing that a post-apocalyptic survivor wouldn’t do. Fitz has Issues.
@nctthedoctor liked for a starter ( no longer accepting )
“ do you ever feel like simmons is flirting with me? i mean, you know her pretty well, right? and i might be crazy, but it definitely seems like whenever we’re in the lab together there’s some kind of... tension? “
Excuse me, I have question. Can you explain what's going on with Amy's narrative? Amy was my first companion and I'm not above saying I'm biased af towards her, but I'm just a little confused by the argument going on. Note: I'm not trying to insult you or anyone, I just generally don't understand what is happening.
Hi!! Yeah of course, its a….pretty convoluted story to say the least, lmao, and i think one of the main problems is that the show never really dwells on its issues? like if you take everything in the show at face value, you believe that amy’s story turns out perfectly fine, and tbh i don’t blame anyone for taking the show at face value bc so often….face value is all you get…. (sorry omg that sounds condescending, what i mean is, the show doctor who especially in its 2010-2014 ish iteration can be very good at the flashy storylines and whizz bang and distracting its audience from thinking critically about like…any of this. at all.)
so uh. i’m going to try and summarise what i think some of the most glaring things in amy’s narrative are? and then like…there are scene or line or like shot-specific gripes that i have but let’s not, because we would quite literally Be Here All Night.
anyway. under a cut bc lmao i can tell already this is going to be long and also, what is this, 2013?
okay well. assuming we all got through s5 relatively on the same page - we love amy, we understand some of her trauma, we understand that there is subtextual and probably actually textual implication of mental illness, we understand she ends s5 with at least two realities and sets of memories in h er head -
in series six she:
spends months on the run from memory-altering monsters that have got a picture of her holding a baby in a creepy orphanage. is kidnapped by said monsters, doesn’t once give up faith that the doctor will save her, oh also she watched a future of him die, and also by the way somewhere along the way she thought she was pregnant and then wasn’t.
rory tells her he knows she wont ever give up when he tries to get her to do CPR on his literally drowning self. and she thinks she fails. obviously rory comes back to life because When Dosent He Lol! but she definitely feels that trauma (and also remembers the combined five times she’s already felt responsible for his or the doctor’s death)
oh yeah she finds his decomposed skeleton inside his KILL AMY DIE AMY HATE AMY death graffiti cave like an episode later. two thousand years i waited for you!!! her own subconscious screams at her. lol. mind games are hilarious.
oh yes, she is also not Real. she is in a ganger state on a prison space station being held in a pregnancy coma. THIS IS VERY DRAMATIC.
and when her kidnapper and tormentor fools the doctor by escaping with amy’s real baby, so amy feels her six-week-old daughter melt into goo in her arms? ALSO VERY DRAMATIC.
i said i wouldnt go line-specific but “permission to hug?” from the doctor to rory - and rory’s haha-funny “…granted” or “that’s probably enough hugging now” (TWICE!!! THEY PULLED THIS SHIT TWICE!!!) is Going On The Fucking List
the doctor doesn’t find her baby. she’s river song and she’s fine - if you can call growing up brainwashed/memory-traumatised/raised by the silence fine, if you can call walking the streets of new york to the point of regeneration as a child fine, if you can call calling yourself a psychopath and devoting your entire upbringing to waiting for and then killing the doctor fine - yes, river song is Fine. regardless: amy never got her baby back.
Honestly this is pretty much the biggest crime when it comes to agency and choices. Like.
Amy didn’t choose to be pregnant.
Amy didn’t want to be pregnant. She didn’t even tell rory, and then said she was “all better”….I mean, I know what that sounds like, and it does not sound like “I consent to this pregnancy.”
So she was forced to carry a baby to term. Without knowing she was. She was literally woken up just to go through labour.
And out of that trauma, she gets six weeks of bonding with her baby daughter. And of course she falls in love with melody, of course she would do anything in her power to protect her – this doesnt negate the trauma of the pregnancy or birth.
And she loses melody to the silence, to a childhood that she knows is going to be hell on earth, a childhood she cant protect her baby from.
okay, well, thats s6. it still has its absolute shining moments for amy – her train carriage wallpapered with drawings and memories, dear god – but at the heart of the series arc is this……horrifying pregnancy and childbirth and lost baby trauma.
DOES IT GET ANY BETTER FROM HERE ON OUT?
no.
no it does not.
okay thats a lie, the middle 3 episodes of 7a are some of my favourites. that just leaves asylum of the daleks and the angels take manhattan to tear into, What Fun,
First up: amy cant have kids anymore lol!!! because of medical things done on her by turns comatose or imprisoned body!!!
this is somehow….Such A Failure On Her Part As A Loving Wife that she and rory break up over it. and i know he like…says she kicked him out. but? come on now. he says he already knows about this not-having-kids thing!! so they talked about it!! and she still felt like breaking up was the best option for him!!!
im livid.
and then the last episode.
i mean, by this point i havent even really touched on the god complex, which is An Exploration of Amy’s Deep-Rooted Childhood Trauma: in Space!!, and also includes that lovely “Amy Williams…it’s time to grow up.”
nor, in fact, have i even touched on the girl who waited, aka Amy Is Made To Wait, Again, and Survive On Her Own, Again: in Space!!! featuring the lovely plot resolution of rory making his wife and his wife compete for him??? it was fucked up lmao.
but i am trying to give the condensed (lmfao) version so let’s skip to amy erasing herself from time because she feels responsible for rory’s happiness.
maybe im getting a lil hyperbolic but idc the point Feels right
“if you love me, then do as i say, and push” or whatever the fuck he says in that horrifying emotionally manipulative rooftop scene.
for like a year my twitter bio was “push me off a building so i know its real”
also river's “never let him see the damage” is….A Bad Line, Steven, but i’m not going to even get into river/11 at all bc thats a Whole Other Nightmare. but it’s a bad line. the fact that the only meaningful scenes post-demon’s run that amy and river share are about the doctor and their individual doctor-related trauma is….Bad.
the gravestone says “and his loving wife amelia williams.”
THE GRAVESTONE SAYS AND HIS LOVING WIFE AMELIA WILLIAMS
A M E L I A W I L L I A M S
like lmao talk about a petty point but her middle name is jessica???? why does rory get to be rory arthur for a Lol Arthur That’s Like The Actor gag and she doesnt even get her canon full name????
sorry i cant really talk coherently about that episode
basically: amy’s narrative was meant to be about choosing both
in amy’s choice she explicitly thinks both the doctor and rory’s dreams could be real.
yes she chooses rory in the triangle-whatever-plotline (pity they never had any confidence in that lmao but anyway) but in terms of Leadworth Or The TARDIS she…stays on the TARDIS? so.
the literal last shot of the s5 finale is amy in her wedding dress in the TARDIS. she chooses both!!! she chooses both lives and that could have been so meaningful and important!!!
instead all of their energy went into giving rory as many opportunities as possible to trot out the “2000 years” factoid and giving the audience cthree different “i love you” bait-and-switch scenes.
like. please dont think i’m letting the doctor off easy here. he messes things up Pretty Catastrophically for amy, like….so many times.
but rory.
rory strips away her choices.
rory polices her time on the TARDIS, her time travelling with her childhood best friend, her time living the fairytale that sustained her for twelve miserable years and four psychiatrists – well, her attention isn’t all on him, so that has to stop eventually, right?
“We have to grow up sometime,” he says. “Says who,” says s5!amy.
“We have two lives, real life and Doctor life,” he says. “What do we do?” asks s7!Amy. “Choose?” he suggests? “……..Not now, though,” she says, in the same episode where she tells the doctor there were years she couldn’t live without him,
look. the point i’m trying to make here is that amy spent 12 years waiting to get out of leadworth. 12 years, and still got that accent?
and she lives out her life in 20th century manhattan. and his loving wife.
that’s. that’s not a narrative about growing up and growing into what you want out of life.
So, in the Las Vegas clip, at the end when Gardner collapses, it looks like he starts shaking in Tulsa's arms. Do you think he has a seizure and there's something wrong with his brain as well as his heart?
(this is from someone that have not seen the movie yet) since he can’t stand earth’s gravity i think it affects everything on his body. It may not be because something is wrong with his brain ans it is with his heart, but maybe the pressure of the gravity was too much for him
would you also do lincoln and daisy? because it's been too long since 3x22 and i miss lincoln campbell
I’m not opposed to it at all! I’ve got a lot in my drawing queue now though thanks to everyone’s great suggestions but I am open for commissions if anyone wants to line hop!
So I read your explanation and: fuck you now I'm in tears because holy Shit that was Emotional and well done you for actually getting that all down!!!?! - on a sort of related/unrelated note, i have one last question (and this is something im asking a lot of people for a project) do you think that amy would have been Happier/had a Better story outcome if she had chosen the Doctor overall? (Relationship, life, etc) also I too am pissed that Jessica wasn't on the tombstone in TATM
Hi!! So I’ve been sitting on this ask for like a week because I…genuinely don’t know how to answer it? But uh, here goes.
So the thing about 11/Amy is that it’s, like, the most breathtakingly romantic thing I have ever seen. Some of that is down to chemistry, sure – and it definitely doesn’t help that Amy and Rory kind of look pained whenever they kiss – but theres also so much more to it. Little moments where it’s so, so clear that Amy knows 11 instinctively – “you could have killed a star whale” on her first adenture, my god. Little moments where you can literally see 11 falling for her (ever fancied someone you shouldn’t?). All the hugs, all the reunions, they way they both go into like, primal levels of emotion if they think the other is in danger or worse. They’re so easy to ship, is the thing. My life in your hands, Amelia Pond. I always worry about you – Mutual. You’ll be there to the end of me! - Or vice versa!
And the whole of Amys Choice, which was framed deliberately and explicitly as a choice between Rory and the Doctor – the Dream Lord in his weird silk robe, I’ve seen your dreams, Amy Pond, all of that –
And like, yes, she does technically choose Rory in that episode. But it’s framed in a way thats so immediately reactive to his death that…I don’t really buy it as a free choice? And like, they stay on the TARDIS. And if they really wanted that to be the end of the Amy/11 teasing then they would have stayed far, far away from all those weird competitive moments later on. Or the bait-and-switches with the “I love you” or the “that man is your father” lmao.
So anyway. There is definitely A Ship there, and like. Yes I do “ship it” if that’s what youre asking.
But do I think it would have been better for Amy?
Hmmmmm.
Because the Doctor isn’t good to Amy, a whole lot of the time.
He lies to her. He keeps information about her body, her pregnancy, from her. He leaves her for 12 years, then another 2, then thirty-six, then another two… He sort of pushes her towards Rory, towards settling down, over and over again, and then isn’t around to pick up the pieces when her relationships get strained or when she’s dealing with like three different timelines worth of trauma. And then even when her life on Earth seems stable-ish (I’m thinking around The Power of Three), he’s still showing up at odd times and always keeping half her attention on the absence of the TARDIS, and, and, and…
Like, from a pure story-telling/scriptwriting point of view, I think they wrote themselves way too far into the Amy/Rory corner by like…Asylum of the Daleks at the very, very latest. A last-minute 11/Amy turnaround there would have been really weird and narratievly unsatisfying, tbh. The ending I would have been okay with, at that point, within the confines of the tone and style of the actual TV show, would have been quite similar to The Power of Three. Amy settled into her life on Earth, with her travel articles and her family and her friends, and the Doctor still…popping in every now and then. How that could have played out without a clear and concrete reason why we wouldn’t see them in future episodes, I dont know.
Going further back…if Amy’s Choice had gone differently, yeah, maybe. Maybe that version of the story would have been more open, and rewarding, and healthy, for Amy.
But let me be absofuckinglutely clear here because I feel like I’ve started talking myself too far into like, a shippy kind of stance, which is not my intention:
Amy’s Choice going differently primarly means not choosing Rory, especially not on those terms (those terms being her feeling responsible for his death).
Amy could have then decided she does, actually, still fancy getting married at some point, or she could not. She could have decided that she wants to actively pursue 11 again (and after the Dream Lord, his whole “pish posh Amelia I am SPACE GANDALF” thing really wouldn’t have held water), or she could not. But this is going back so far, and ignoring so many traumas later down the line – traumas that the Doctor was responsible for in some instances! – that we’re almost talking about a completely different narrative.
I do think after Demon’s Run, it would have been nearly (or completely) impossible to do romantic Amy/11 without running into some serious problems like the fact that he didn’t tell her she was pregnant and also a ganger.
Me watching the show at 17 with my trash goggles on would have disagreed, and would have wanted her to just snog him like 3 minutes from the end of any given episode.
But like.
God, I DON’T KNOW.
I’m tying myself up in knots here. A better ending for the specific episode The Angels take Manhattan would have absolutely included her going back into the TARDIS, and having time to grieve, and heal, and the Doctor would have absolutely been a part of that process.
And it’s like, as someone who identifies with Amy a Whole Darn Lot, I do think maybe she would have wanted something romantic to happen then, even if the wider narrative would still always carry the same issues and problems that make it hard for me to wholeheartedly agree that it’s a good story beat.
Look, at the end of the day anything that gets her out of that trashfire of a marriage is a better story and a better option.
What I wanted for Amy was for her to get her own choices back, her own agency. And I think it’s pretty hard for anyone to argue that she would ever have freely chosen to give up the TARDIS and the travelling and the adventures. So that’s what I want for her. Not as Rory’s, not as the Doctor’s, not as anyone’s. Just for herself.
I don’t know if this at all answers your question, lmao. I did try, but I think I ended up contradicting myself like 500 times. But anyway.
