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I finally made it into the family group chat and so far my experience is that I need them to stop having and sharing their weekly little adventures.

How the fuck do people go places for fun all the time??

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Life gets a lot more bearable once your realize that you can just...throw the trash out at 3 am

Like...nobody cares. Nobody is gonna watch and judge you. They are all cozy asleep and you are now trash free

Win win

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Plan for next year is to wean myself off having something talk to me 24/7 (as in podcast/video/both even)

I think thats whats on the very top of my pile of maladaptive coping and I'm getting tired of it interfering with things that I actually want to do (I miss reading. Like...so much ;_;)

So yeah...time to learn being alone with my thoughts again instead of constantly drowning them out as much as possible

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Cw ed // disordered eating

Me: Alright I need to start taking care of this fleshvessel. What's an exercise I could do to get into shape?

Brain: Starve yourself

Me: ...tempting but no!

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Character growth is recognizing that you're irrational angry and confrontational and ignoring a notif instead of getting into conversation that would (probably) make everything worse

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I need to stop promising people things just cause I feel bad about having disappointed them recently.

It never ends well and I just hate myself more

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Bringing out the trash at 3am like a very normal brained person

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Replacing the anxiety shivers with caffeine shivers to vibrate at double the speed! :D