22, 23, 27-30 ask game!
22) do you ever worry about public reaction to what you’re writing? how do you get past that?
I used to worry more than nowadays, but I still do to some extent. I got nervous when publishing "Memory of Shura", because it brought a heavier perspective of Genichiro and Emma relationship.
And back when Elden Ring released and I first got obsessed with Godwyn, I never had courage to actually create anything about him, because the feelings regarding his sidequest, ending, npcs etc were very heated and lore always felt intimidating. It was Messmer who changed it.
But I still have certain anxiety, especially if some stories escape the bubble such as "Bastards and Broken Things". This last story, "Dark Side of a Sun", also got me lowkey nervous because of its heavy content of disturbing themes — and I did have issues, but it's fine now.
I feel like the friends I made within these years writing about Fromsoft games really helped me feel less worried ♥. Now I get more excited to see their insights, to have our lore discussions, than I'm worried or concerned.
And after all the issues I had, I realized that whoever hates what I write, will continue to hate it, even if I tried to please them. It's quite freeing. Especially because no one would write the weird ass things I like, much less them.
23) pick three keywords that describe your writing
creativity — research — obsession
27) your favorite part of the writing process
It's writing itself. Even when I stare at the blank document for hours and can't produce a single sentence. Whenever I write, I feel like I'm getting to another realm, witnessing another reality, I'm no longer present and real. Nothing else matters.
28) your least favorite part of the writing process
Editing. Fuck, I hate editing! Especially because I write in mess of portuguese and english, and I have to translate and it takes days, and I have bad eyesight, and I struggle with basic grammar... that's why I have a dozen of fanfics in my docs that I failed to publish :v I will do it, I promise!
29) how easy is it for you to come up with titles?
Not easy at all D: Godwyn made it easier, because now I just mention something related to the sun or sea... but very often I feel like I'm suffering from the same issue of nowadays romantasy titles. The Thing of The Other structure. I regret nothing!!!
30) share a fic you’re especially proud of
Gods, how could I not mention Bastards and Broken Things?
65 chapters. 220k words. Not even my original writing projects got near this size (its the closest thing I'll have of publishing a book lmao). And all the plot of it, how I played with canon settings to build a new perspective of it, the whole worldbuilding that I spent months studying the game to make...
I wonder if I'll ever be able to write something like this again.
