I fully see the “romanticizing unwellness” aspect of ttpd. Whenever I’m experiencing a huge heartbreak, it’s awful and all-consuming and I hate it and I’m miserable. But coming out of it? I poke the bruise. I listen to the sad songs that lyricize everything I thought. I intentionally rip open old wounds. And I think back on how awful I felt at the time, but it’s like “oh, wasn’t I just tragic? but wasn’t it the most poetic thing?” obviously idk about everyone else, but that’s how I interpret your interpretation lol
"wasn't I just tragic? wasn't it the most poetic thing?" is EXACTLY IT oh my GOD!!! There's a real addiction that we can develop to looking for the 'deeper truth' and meaning in our wounds, and just digging into that. And especially an addiction to the sheer depth of feeling it involves. It's a form of self harm that we can sometimes rationalize as self-acceptance or processing even when it goes too far.
There's also, I think, something about leaning into that stuff that makes us feel more alive as people, but also makes us feel uniquely harmed and cursed in a way that nobody else could POSSIBLY relate to (even if that isn't true), and makes us create this caricature of ourselves that is way more of a concept than a human person. And TTPD is SO heavy on that.
I think stabbing into yourself for the tragedy of it all isn't something that EVERYONE does or relates to, at least based on how people respond when I talk about it. Which kinda furthers the alienation. But that's why TTPD the song exists and is the title source of the album! Sometimes the only way out is to realize you really ARE just some guy and not Dylan Thomas or Patti Smith having your quintessential narrative breakdown lmao















