#tbd maybe.

[rcnhide]

how does qsmp still exist like deadass after all the shit that happend w it....

[captainseamech]

//if I wasn't so afraid to receive random anon hate and accusations because I interact with someone from Fandom x I'd have a lot more content and even lots of verses... that is, if that damned anon didn't haunt me still. Ugh.

I think this is my psa disguised as a vent that I do want to interact with you regardless of your fandom. It's on my end. I need to stop being an absolute chicken and get some bloody plots going because I do want to interact with yall and get some ships and angst and drama and slice of life and whatever else.

Trust me. I may look uninterested and may look like I'm ignoring your attempts of communicating with me / interacting with me but I'm not. I see you every single day. I go flappy hands because "oh hey!! The person I wanted to interact with noticed me!!" but then again my own insecurities hit me harder than a monster truck which forces me to interact with only one group of people.

I repeat: if I follow you, I want to interact with you. I apologize if I seem uninterested or if I look like I'm ignoring you; trust me, I'm not. I just have a lot on my plate and my brain is mean to me. That's all. I love you

[lastwished-a]

sb: oh are you yennefer of vengerberg?? i’ve heard great things about you yen: don’t lie to me like that

[captainseamech]

//me: I have connected with my mutuals :]

High Tide: Ya didn’t do shit, ya just kept creatin’ verses for their respective fandoms in order to hopefully interact with them in the future so they don’ have to scavenge through MY lore and not makin’ them worry about whatever the fuck I am and also because ya keep feeling insecure about creating a multimuse of said fandoms

Me:

Me: I have connected with them :]

[captainseamech]

//gonna lurk over disc.ord until I fall asleep, mutuals feel free to add me! But please say who you are <3

Lapis#9280

[captainseamech]

//I swear to God

[captainseamech]

//ok brain why searching for a funny meme made me wanna muse the character?

[ultimaterealmofchaos]

i feel as if my ocs are not as good as everyone else’s.

i feel as if my portrayals of my canons are not as good as everyone else’s.

i feel as if i am not as entertaining as everyone else is.

i feel as if i am not as good as everyone else is.

i feel as if i am not important like everyone else is.

perhaps i am not around often enough.

perhaps i am too old.

“just write!” that sounds in my head so much, but...

what is the point?

i can’t jump fandoms like everyone else does.

i don’t like the same things as everyone else does.

perhaps that makes me unworthy and unwanted.

because who would want me, who isn’t into the exact same things, when everyone jumps onto every new thing the instant it surfaces?

blah.

c’est la vie.