The Early 30′s Career Crisis
I currently work at a preschool. Thanks to Covid, numbers have been kept quite low and I’ve actually enjoyed this past year teaching. I felt like I grew closer to my kids and we felt like a tight small community.
It wasn’t until last week when we had 5 new kids coming in from a younger class, that things got to me. I started feeling impatient, frustrated, exhausted. I heard bad things about some of the new kids before they came over so I was expecting myself for the worst. Well, so far, I didn’t get the worst but it was still bad. During playtime, some of my new kids decided to do the following; say very rude words, hitting, and choking. From past experience, I knew I just have to be consistent and make my class aware of the expectations we have in class. I even let them decide what expectations to have. I think if I can just keep going, it’ll probably be ok. Lately, I can’t help but feel absolutely FED UP. I feel like teaching is what I should continue to do, but it’s just doing my head in. Been feeling like I should think of an alternative career, but is it too late for me?
I recently got approved for my Green Card, so it allowed my husband to quit his job and study to become a Software Engineer. I agreed to support him throughout his studies (insurance, helping out with food and bills), while he continues to pay rent. As much as I am happy for him, I also feel some pressure to keep my job.
I took a mental health day today because it just got to me really bad this morning. I didn’t want to get out of bed at all. Normally, I would get up right away to shower and leave for work . I just didn’t want to do anything at all but sleep.
I’m trying to work out what I want to do. I absolutely love teaching but I can’t help but feel exhausted. Teacher burnout is real.
After a nice shower and a lovely walk at my neighbourhood park, I’ve decided to do something to help me cope for the next few months:
1. Possibly change my hours. I currently start at 7am and the lack of sleep has really affected me. Now that my husband has to study from 9 to 6, at least a later shift will help me match my husband’s.
2. Decide if a change in teaching environment is all that I need. Maybe I’m more suited to a smaller class environment? Or a public school environment that gives me more breathing space to plan?
3. Look into alternative careers. Maybe I do need a career change? Something that involves all of my existing skills. We shall see.
So yeah, here’s an update that nobody waited for!
To whoever made it this far - thank you for reading this :)