To Know Or Not To Know, That Is The Question
Do not spend your lie on protecting it from stories you tell yourself abut it.
The more illusion is strip away, the more real life becomes. The crucial question is not how much knowledge you possess but how much reality which is also how much lack of knowledge you can tolerate.
Reality means not familiar facts such as death, suffering, loss, uncertainty, or impermanence but the recognition that the world is not organized around your preferences. There are no guarantees that your plans will succeed, that your beliefs will be confirmed, that your efforts will be rewarded, or that your life possess a purpose written into the fabric of the universe. Reality does not negotiate with your wishes. It simply is what it is. This is hard to accept. If it were easy there would be no prayers, Maybe the beginning of wisdom is the recognition of reality. Not because reality is hostile, but because it is indifferent. It does not rearrange itself to preserve our self-image, justify our expectations, or shield us from disappointment.
The challenge is that there are limits to what any person can absorb. Reality is not something we can swallow whole. Push too far, too fast, and the result is not wisdom but overwhelm. Human beings require forms of psychological regulation if they are to function. These regulators take many forms. Beliefs, identities, ambitions, routines, philosophies, relationships, and personal narratives all help us maintain a workable relationship with reality. They are not necessarily mistakes. In many cases they are psychological shock absorbers. The interesting question is not whether we have such buffers. Everyone does. The question is whether we recognize them as buffers.
We don't experience pain just because we have stories in our lives. Instead, we struggle when we forget that these stories are nothing more but stories. The real problem arises when we confuse our ideas and beliefs with actual reality, treating our mental maps as if they were the real world. When this happens, we stop using these stories as tools to help us understand life and start to defend them as if they were the truth. We become guardians of the protection rather than students of what it protects us from.