(this post talks bout body parts.. including nsfw/t ones... be warned)
Wow. I can't believe I'm here. I remember being in high school, where being on testosterone felt so far away. It's only been a few years, yet here I am. I feel like this should be a bigger thing, that everything should be totally different, but I'm still much the same man, living much the same life. A far improved life, yes, but still much the same.
This is not a usual update for me, as I thought (jus in time for tdov), I would do a much more detailed update talking about every change I've experienced so far. Everything that's happened to me in these last six moths.
Join me below the cut, will you?
Over all, I can't say my mood has been affected too much. That may be due to bein a chronic depression haver (it's usually medicated, but I ran out recently and am waiting for my insurance to get fixed, hence why this post is late) The reason im feeling generally better is due to being on testosterone, not the testosterone itself. Getting closer to achieving the body I want makes me happier. I did notice I would have random bad days for no reason, where I would just be pissed at everything, in a way I haven't experienced before. All I could think is I used to be so numb before. It's a good thing I'm feeling more, even if that feeling is annoyance.
Thr first things I noticed were my skin, body hair and scent. I have a condition that is triggered by heat, so sweating a lot is something I'm used to. I noticed, in general, I was getting a lot more sweaty more often. This helped me notice my body odor being stronger. This, combined with the changes to my skin, made me need to shower a lot more often.
I can't confirm this one, but I swear my skin is a little... tighter? tougher? Something... About a week in, I just felt itchy, everywhere. It took me a while to realize this was my new body hair growing in! Some of the earliest changes were body hair!
Even before T, I naturally had a lot of thick dark body hair. Especially on my forearms (bullies used to call me monkey or gorilla (which in hindsight sounds kinda racist but I'm white so maybe not? lol?)) Well, I thought I had a lot of body hair before, being on T gave me so much. For a while I was sure that that was all T was doing to me. More, darker, thicker hair on my legs and forearms. NEW body hair on my upper arms, hands, knuckles, belly (cute lil happy trail), back, nipples??? Also between my eyebrows. Then, of course, facial hair (yay). There isn't much, but a few weeks in, I noticed one singular long chin hair (wich later became two) which in hindsight is very funny. As for the rest of my face, very faintly, there is new hair around my ears (side burns?) and at the edge of my upper lip (dirtstache?). ALSO! ASS HAIR!! BRO! WHY did I see no information about this! No one warned me! HOW do cis men, trans woman and intersex people deal with this! You telling me hair grows around your asshole!? Just naturally!?
Body fat redistribution next! About 3/4 months in, I looked down and noticed my legs now line up with my torso! Also I swear my (luckily naturally tiny) bewbs got smaller and my shoulders got wider, but i cant prove that.
Lastly, bottom growth/stuff. Horny talk beyond this point!
I do got a tiny tdick now. I noticed I was a lot hornier early on (just in my unique flavour of asexual), also my fantasies got a lil weirder/more detailed? I'm pretty sure I also smell differently down there now?
