Edit, Jan 2025: hi if you're going to ask for me to turn reblogs on or ask why they're off I have a suggestion: don't! They're off because I want them to be and that's that. I'm tired of being nice about this stupid fucking post. Don't tell me how nothing matters because we're going to die on a post about living, or make weird comments on a post about my body, or insert your weird "I am a god" soapbox spiel into my deeply personal post. This art is not about you, and it never fucking will be. The people on this website don't know how to interact with other people normally.
Horniness: Random boners, sensitivity, and therefore increase in sex drive.
Temperature Increase: I became a lot warmer and had to start wearing less layers. Honestly a saving grace for the winter.
Week 3
EXHAUSTED - Sleeping a lot, feel more tired, never feel awake enough.
STARVED - I am the infinite void!! An endless tunnel for food. I want to eat and so I WILL !!
Chronic illness worsened: Hypo episodes more regular, chest pain. Likely from hunger and higher metabolism.
Week 4
Visible Bottom Growth: I took progress pictures on day 1 and I can see that I actually have some bottom growth! It is clearly bigger down there. So happy.
Deeper Voice: I also did Voice recordings to be able to check my progress, and my voice has deepened slightly since I started!
Chronic Illness restabilized: I learned how to eat more and don't feel worse anymore! I just have to upkeep higher calories now 🫶
End of month review:
I highly recommend anyone starting T take plenty of progress pics, audio and video!
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Hi I posted this literally a month late so I will be posting my 2 month update like today probably!!! Follow me for more TMI T Diary
It's so awesome how gaining weight is a plus on both estrogen and testosterone hrt bc either way it gives your body more to work with when making changes. if you're just starting hrt i command you to start eating more carbs NEOW
i've been busy working on my portfolio so i'm a little bit late, the 2 months mark was on June 25th but !! we'll pretend it's today. my dosage is still at 0.5ml and the results so far are mind blowing, like i can't believe it
i anticipated how patient i'd have to be, i didn't want to be disappointed and frustrated if the evolution was too slow.
ᕦᕤ but i pass in public now? and ik it's summer and i'm usually more "masc" cz i wear shirts and shorts all the time lol, whereas in winter i like to layer and be more fashionable, but my voice used to be that one thing that would prevent me from passing ig. now it's deeper and i almost never get misgendered on the phone!
ᕦᕤ my voice cracks sometimes, like when i have to speak quite loud for a long time or when i scream wHAt.
ᕦᕤ being misgendered in public doesn't affect me as much now, because it's like a perfect balance between he and she lol
ᕦᕤ i still sweat a lot. found two ways to cope: deodorant cream and a clean towel in my backpack at all times ᕙ( : ˘ ∧ ˘ : )ᕗ
ᕦᕤ clit still getting bigger lol
ᕦᕤ my appetite is definitely more manageable now, although it's still quite high
ᕦᕤ new hairs on my sternum, thighs, stomach (and upper arms, but v fine). my partner said that my mustache is getting darker!!
ᕦᕤ no anger issues, no irritation at all
ᕦᕤ still cry a lot!! :)) /pos
ᕦᕤ i've put on some weight, not much, i'm trying not to freak out. it's hard because of my ed, but I've been trying to look up to more diverse masculine figures in my life. when i see my brother who's like, not a twink, i'm like yea sure i'd like to look like that. progress
recent makeup i did + my roommate on June 26th being like yea i think your voice got deeper ᕙ(͡°‿ ͡°)ᕗ
(this post talks bout body parts.. including nsfw/t ones... be warned)
Wow. I can't believe I'm here. I remember being in high school, where being on testosterone felt so far away. It's only been a few years, yet here I am. I feel like this should be a bigger thing, that everything should be totally different, but I'm still much the same man, living much the same life. A far improved life, yes, but still much the same.
This is not a usual update for me, as I thought (jus in time for tdov), I would do a much more detailed update talking about every change I've experienced so far. Everything that's happened to me in these last six moths.
Join me below the cut, will you?
Over all, I can't say my mood has been affected too much. That may be due to bein a chronic depression haver (it's usually medicated, but I ran out recently and am waiting for my insurance to get fixed, hence why this post is late) The reason im feeling generally better is due to being on testosterone, not the testosterone itself. Getting closer to achieving the body I want makes me happier. I did notice I would have random bad days for no reason, where I would just be pissed at everything, in a way I haven't experienced before. All I could think is I used to be so numb before. It's a good thing I'm feeling more, even if that feeling is annoyance.
Thr first things I noticed were my skin, body hair and scent. I have a condition that is triggered by heat, so sweating a lot is something I'm used to. I noticed, in general, I was getting a lot more sweaty more often. This helped me notice my body odor being stronger. This, combined with the changes to my skin, made me need to shower a lot more often.
I can't confirm this one, but I swear my skin is a little... tighter? tougher? Something... About a week in, I just felt itchy, everywhere. It took me a while to realize this was my new body hair growing in! Some of the earliest changes were body hair!
Even before T, I naturally had a lot of thick dark body hair. Especially on my forearms (bullies used to call me monkey or gorilla (which in hindsight sounds kinda racist but I'm white so maybe not? lol?)) Well, I thought I had a lot of body hair before, being on T gave me so much. For a while I was sure that that was all T was doing to me. More, darker, thicker hair on my legs and forearms. NEW body hair on my upper arms, hands, knuckles, belly (cute lil happy trail), back, nipples??? Also between my eyebrows. Then, of course, facial hair (yay). There isn't much, but a few weeks in, I noticed one singular long chin hair (wich later became two) which in hindsight is very funny. As for the rest of my face, very faintly, there is new hair around my ears (side burns?) and at the edge of my upper lip (dirtstache?). ALSO! ASS HAIR!! BRO! WHY did I see no information about this! No one warned me! HOW do cis men, trans woman and intersex people deal with this! You telling me hair grows around your asshole!? Just naturally!?
Body fat redistribution next! About 3/4 months in, I looked down and noticed my legs now line up with my torso! Also I swear my (luckily naturally tiny) bewbs got smaller and my shoulders got wider, but i cant prove that.
Lastly, bottom growth/stuff. Horny talk beyond this point!
I do got a tiny tdick now. I noticed I was a lot hornier early on (just in my unique flavour of asexual), also my fantasies got a lil weirder/more detailed? I'm pretty sure I also smell differently down there now?
love my voice changing, very gender, very cool! but it absolutely sucks that i have to relearn how to sing along to all my favourite songs from scratch because now i cant hit my usual high notes anymore and i'm not used to singing low at all so it's very awkward! And it keeps changing too! can't wait for my voice to settle in somewhere so i can actually find the right range and keep it :/
