#thanks ed

[youngerthanyesterday]

Chris Hillman with a kitty cat, 1969

Photos by Ed Caraeff

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Taylor and her fuckass numerology and the potential that she got engaged on Saturday which was August 23 which is 8+2+3=13 goodbye world

[stqrrin]

dude im so fucking excited to wear a tank top in public like it sounds dumb but i finally made it to a point where i feel comfortable enough to do that 🤤🤤

[delicatefury]

Too many changes in my life too quick.

Also, got another reminder that I’ve been constantly underpaid in my professional life. Which means I’ve still not recovered fully from the huge hit to my ego the Worst Boss Ever™️ did to me nearly 5 years ago. Which sucks. Thought I was doing better. Thought I’d finally realized how I deserve so much better. Still work to do, huh? (This job is still good. That’s the thing. I’ve learned the reason getting new hires for this position is so hard is because new law graduates in this area are starting at numbers I’ve never touched. That, uh, kinda hurts. Especially since I know how fuckin’ (over-)qualified I am.)

Add in some existential dread from the fact that my brain keeps telling me I’m going to be alone and forgotten. Which is a fucking lie. Even if I never get married, my niblings are too awesome to ever let that happen.

My former boss’s wake is the first day of the family vacation. His funeral is the second. So I’m not going on the vacation. I’d love to take a day trip or a weekend and go somewhere, instead, but the only reason I could afford the vacation after, y’know, new car, was the split costs.

Speaking of my new car, it got a nasty scratch 🥺. I think from my backpack, given the shape and proximity to the door (it goes up and down in pretty much the exact pattern of my hoisting it on my shoulder…) I can’t see metal, but I don’t thing it will just buff out, either…

So, yeah, brain is in low-key panic mode.

Best solution is to paint, but I’m dog-sitting for my sister and her family starting tomorrow, so I need to clear the house of anything that won’t be safe for the goober to get into or knock over. He’s wonderful, but a German Shorthaired Pointer aka a whirlwind with legs.

And my dogs need walking tonight. So that’s another half hour+ after work accounted for.

I’m trying to be driven more by my likes than my wants, and I keep reminding myself there’s still sunshine and birds and God is good. But again, brains are hard to fully control. Especially one that’s decided to panic.

So

I’m going to set a timer for 10 minutes. I’m going to grab my sketchbook. And I’m going to draw. Something fun. Something with pen, maybe color. Something that makes me smile.

I’m gonna straighten up the house tonight.

I’m going to go to bed early and I’m going to pick up my sister’s dog tomorrow after work for a weekend of chaos.

And I’m going to love it.

Wow. Just writing this all out has helped. Nice. I guess sometimes you really do just have to grit your teeth and make yourself hope.

[petit-papillion]

Ed doing a lot better at learning Italian than I am. DuoLingo bird is not happy with me...

Chatles with Ed Sheeran at Miami GP | May 2024

🎥 Scuderia Ferrari

[mr-deep-downer]

this is what I get for posting a joke selfie into the group chat

[mitebitmurderous]

if you like bugs favirte bug ?

otherwise uhhh favorite general creature in the world

not exceptionally fond of bugs but I do appreciate a good centipede

[jackthelassx]

Smile! It’s wipe your dog’s mouth Wednesday!!

HAPPY WIPE YOUR DOGS MOUTH WEDNESDAY