LADY SORROW, WHY DO YOU ROAM ?? all mortal life wrapped tight in strings that tangle, some red, some gilded and thin, no respite from the ever weaving tapestry. iluvatar breaks bread into two and the world follows suit : manwë takes the skies, varda plants her seeds into the cosmos, ulmo spills at the seams until everything is blue ━━━ and then there is her. and then there is love. it starts small, with the caterpillar, with the worm, and all those little things that eat dirt, and grows into something beautiful. she walks the shores, bare feet against sand while she gets used to having feet, and everything is simple. but then he decrees : i have named thee messenger, and her bones reshape inside her body, this black hole of abstract shape caving in on itself, until she’s inside out, muscle and sinew and gold tinted blood.
she knew his father once. now she knows him, still fair-haired, head still held high, as if that way the crown would be out of reach of whatever ghosts follow in his step. she knows ghosts too ; luthien and maedhros and ecthelion. mairon, or who he could have been. his phayakĕmĕ in her gardens, and all those not of elvenkind who fall one by one under the spell of time. she herds ghosts, so maybe it is not so strange that she roams his halls now, that she dug herself a home in sickly root, made a bed out of spider web. her smile is kind as ever, delicate fingers finding a perch at his elbow, though her teeth look too sharp for a moment. ❝ you have been quiet. what weighs so heavy on your mind ?? ❞