i was wondering if you'd ever go into depth on how aizawa started hurting deku in 'the perfect victim's universe? also! i remember you mentioning that aizawa had to psyche himself up to actually sexually assault deku, but after the first time was aizawa more willing to take the risk and do it often? and does he go out of his way to do nice stuff for deku, to kind of assuage his own guilt? (also i just wanted to say i love your writing so much! it's really good)
hmm! im not sure its something i can go into depth on much?? im not sure exactly what you mean by “how” but i cant really tell you his like, thought process behind the decision if you thats what you mean. (probably the problem with making a canonically good character abusive sdfisjdf) ALTHOUGH i’ll go into why he does it now in the next answer so like, idk, maybe thats good enough….?? i feel like its not why he initially did it exactly but idfkisdfjsdf
maybe not immediately after the first time, but i think it becomes a pretty frequent thing not too long after! its fun and convenient and its sort of a stress relief thing for aiz, and he is a uh very stressed person. so like if he gets fed up with his class during school at any point he’ll probably call deku to his office or grab him before he goes home for the day to get off and relax a little. (and speaking of which i could see there being a bit of resentment in it, yknow?? he goes through a lot while teaching this class, between all the villain attacks and just.. them being fuckin rowdy, and all the grading and other stuff teachers deal with. maybe hes taking it out on him bc hes one of his most troublesome students….???)
i think hes nice to him immediately after hes done something to him? i guess it kind of depends on ur definition of nice, though. there tends to be aftercare and sometimes affection if deku is too shaken afterward, like in the fic. but he usually doesnt comfort him unless he starts crying (too hard) and otherwise just sends him out when hes done w him. and ive mentioned before that he gives deku good grades even though they would be tanking if he graded them honestly, which, idk, ccccould be seen as nice?
outside of that, i thhhink his response to the guilt is actually to just ignore him tbh? he cant feel bad about how his actions are affecting deku if he doesnt pay enough attention to him to notice!!
so overall, nah not really.
(oh man i didnt even see that the first 292 times i read this. thank you so much!!)
