Yo, is there any "next" step you've been thinking about or planning re: transitioning? Or are you happy with where you are now? :3
(asked April 2nd)
HRT (happening!?), coming out (edging forward on this front; I have clothes now!), voice training (fell off, *sigh*).
Back when you originally asked this, I would've said "coming out to my parents". In fact, I even contemplated making a whole flowchart, hinging on parents, lol.
Sorry for what I'm about to say, but the idea that I might be happy where I am (especially where I was at the time) is/was just laughable... no offense, ofc. I guess I mostly feel frustrated that I don't talk about my transfemininity enough, but —as I'm sure you're aware— it's kinda hard to directly post (or talk) about such personal things.
If you've seen my recent efforts/declaration to post, like, tag, comment, etc. more, that's one of my next steps! I've been trying to be more open about my thoughts lately (though sometimes I wonder if anyone even cares). I've been trying to work up the will/self-image to actually comment on people's stuff (including your stuff), but I'm still super worried about looking mean/insensitive sometimes... (and partly for good reason, cause often I can hardly seem to get my point across)
Eventually, I'd like for less things to get lost in likes, and more things to get full reblogs, but I don't know that I'm confident or prepared (tag-wise; this is kinda why I'm thinking-out-loud over on #tag talk) enough for that yet.
Unfortunately, tumblr is kinda my #1 method of communication (I pretty much only talk here or on signal, and you know how little I talk on signal), which is probably not the best... lack of discord alternative is killing me —signal just doesn't at all hit this for me, sadly, and I hate sending any sort of intricate/long message on there.
P.S. I'm excited for you to post the philosophy you've been hyping up! I hope you're open to some light discussion, because believe it or not I'm actually pretty interested!
how ya feeling about graduation? I.e., leaving high school and moving on to that next chapter—whatever that may look like for you :P
(asked May 11th; yikes, late response!)
Empty.
It is hard to respond, to do anything; sorry.
I've been working on this for hours, where's the results? Cause and effect dictates that my will mustered must go somewhere; it dissipates into thought, purposeless, nothing happens.
At times I wonder if I know at all what it means to live, to be something more than an automaton. I catch glimpses of her, in conversation, better times; is that a front? reality?
It's hard to tell, I don't live in reality anyway... my body image is undoubtedly divergent from real life. She is unmistakably a girl, I am blessed for that, but indescribably different.
I guess I'm hopeful that in this "new chapter" I can bring her to the forefront. I am scared and worried, readers are at the edge of their seats pleading for idealization =|:P
