feeling insane about Dawn and Buffy.
what if you were Buffy?
what if you were constantly told to give up every possible moment of joy and normalcy in your life, from the moment you were 16 years old, to sacrifice your existence to better the world? what if you toiled every day, fighting, risking your life for a destiny and a world that was entirely forced upon you, and it asked for more? it asked to consume you entirely?
what if, in that duty, a group of monks you didnt know (to stop a god who shouldnt be here) took the small part of you that was still a kid, still a girl, still you, and ripped it out of you? turned her into a whole person, outside of you?
what if that girl - all the parts of you that were just yours, not the world's - was so loved outside of you? shes protected by your mother in ways you never were, because your mother couldnt protect you from your duty. your friends take care of her and love her, she has all the time in the world to be with them. she only sees the best parts of everyone, no one would dare lean on her when they could lean on you, so you carry them as you work.
how could you be selfless enough to love her?
but buffy does. thats her daughter. she dies saving dawn.
she'll do anything to keep that little girl safe, as she's always done. even before Dawn was a girl all on her own, Buffy had to fight ruthlessly every day to keep being herself, to keep her friends and family and joy.
she was always protecting Dawn. the whole show is Buffy protecting the Dawn part of herself. she literally carried Dawn for 4 seasons before she was born i feel insane.
