#the affectionist

[theaffectionist]

" Being ablated from each others body, it marked the death of lovers but honey, inspite that it bothers no one, this universe will always mourn the perishment of our love."

[theaffectionist]

"Your eyes traveled my body, entranced from the surface, you made it vivid that i was wanted,

While your b'ful highs made me haunted...

I let you in my hands, i let you in my eyes, I let you in my arms, I let you in my heart and I, I even let you in the door..

I let you share my tears, I let you share my smiles, I let you share my love,I let you share my life and I, I even let you share my body.

Your protrusion and my depth brought a new life, while you only wanted to fall in my abyss and that oxytocin bliss,but life had decided something else...

From the keyboard, you used to tell me the names you thought of the life we'd bring, you said your heart was a tulip's velvety centre, while i held the dark chocolates you gave, with rosy cheeks tinted from your love.

But Now when you had a life, you could name your own, you no more wanted to...

But now, Now that I gave you love, you didn't want to repay it...

Now that I needed you, you no more wanted me...

I let you travel my crevices, let you touch my tenderness, let you taste my unreachable, I let you...

While you just aimed at ecstasy, but i had something else too for you... A tiny breather that fed on my breaths, a lil life in the lap of my soul, a body linked to mine, so magical and miserable.

I begged you to stay but you didn't hear a thing.

I stabbed a knife in my own belly without a single scream, i cried through the invisibilities... I had to kill that heart that just began its beating, because I was carrying the goods that had no owner. I killed it but I, I am not the murderer, you are the one, you're the sinner... But hey karma, I am the one who's dying, I've no one to hear me out because I made a mistake to worship the devil, I made a mistake, but I am only 21 and now I go around hiding my stitches while my man is going around to kill other lives, of his own, he's going around some innocent depths without a trace of fear because his adrenaline doesn't scare his oxytocin, he's a male, he doesn't have to have lifetime scars on his body, he can go anywhere and the one at fault is me, and million others like me, because we carry scars under the sweaters, broken heart under the ribs and broken hymen between the legs... And a graveyard inside our soul.

I didn't just lost a child, i lost a forever, i lost premature ventricular contractions that happen for love, i lost the only thing I loved, but through it all i gained the truth, truth that sounds like a final destination sequel, as aching and excruciating but this truth was needed to pull out masquerade from your face, taught me some hard lessons but am glad i killed that unfortunate life who was supposed to be child of a man like you.

There is nothing more disgusting than a man, who targets a women's love but can't handle the aftereffects.

Coward is the man who dares to travel the depths but cant pay the price to the consequences. It's easy to get on one-knee but it's not easy to walk on two-knees, with a life on your shoulder, but one leads to the other, if you can't stand the latter, DO NOT DARE TO DO THE FORMER!

➡ To love a person is standing by them at good and bad, it's not getting your thing done and run away when things go unanticipated. If it happens to you, don't run away, face it, find your way, but don't leave her, this is the most horrible level of deceivement.

▫️To my man, Forget the karma, I pray your conscience doesn't let you breath 🤞🏿 🤞🏿.

▫️Dear people, If you're something like me, repost it to let these lover-masqueraded demons feel their sins, do the same even if your man didn't leave you.

▫️ Teach your boys the value of loyalty or else it could be their sister writing this too.

And Dear men reading this, " Stand By Her "

( - a female with scars on

her belly, who's

ashamed to say her name)

[theaffectionist]

"Dont let your brainy roars kill the screams of your heart."

[theaffectionist]

"The world will always try to measure you, but you'll lose yourself the day you try to fit into them because you are INFINITE.

Don't let mediocrity inspire you.

[theaffectionist]

"You're flawlessly beautiful and i feel so sad about you, because all of the love you step on with the click-clack of your pointed heels is only because of your worldly-chased beauty,for the world,you're so perfect that you're no less than a "Sculpture",But also you're no more than that..."

[theaffectionist]

"It takes two hearts to worship one love

And one heart to prove it a false god."

[theaffectionist]

"It is said that tearless grief bleeds inwardly but unconfessed greif bleeds, drains and assassinates."

[theaffectionist]

I don't want to die...

But neither do I want to live.