Okay, but Oscar's breakdown?? Chef's kiss, heartbreaking, the way the mask cracks for those moments, his GRIEF at not being able to publicly mourn the love of his life. And I'm sure all of it came back in flashes. How he tried to snub John Adams so that he could find a candidate for a lavender marriage. How John Adams tried to persuade him to live as openly as possible. His fear, his retreat to the shadows.
And then, his mother knowing exactly what was happening, but never breathing a word of it. Ada understanding that Oscar's grief resembled her own at losing her husband, yet not comprehending why Oscar could be feeling this for John Adams unless it was his "savior," like how she felt Reverend Forte was her life's savior. Marian understanding what was going on, and having the heart to comfort him in the privacy of his room. And his relief at finally being seen, being loved by at least one person in his family.
