I just had the realization that the reason I love the Eclipse so much is that I have never had a character be so much like me as a teen than Akk. And honestly Aye is very much like me when I was a bit older. But Akk... I am still baffled how a Thai BL about a boy's school was able to so completely capture what it was like for me growing up in the evangelical church. I WAS Akk as a teen, forcing myself to be closeted, following the rules to the letter, and doing things that no one told me to do but knowing I was supposed to do them even if I hated what I was doing. Why? Because if I didn't, I knew I would be punished and I, like Akk, was so brainwashed that I thought I didn't have any other choice. I unfortunately didn't have an Aye to get me out, so I became my own Aye, mental illness and all. but so much happier for it, to be confident in my sexuality and self now. Man this show is so good
