#the mantis posts

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on one hand, i dont want to date and would say no if someone asked me out romantically. on the other hand though, hurts my ego that no one’s into me :/

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why is recovering so much harder than getting worse

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yknow how parents will cut food into fun shapes to get their kid to eat it? i feel like my therapist is doing that to me (/positive)

paying attention to my emotions and what causes me to feel certain ways and how i react? boringggg. but making brain ocs that represent my emotions (Inside Out style) and paying attention to myself so they can be ‘lore accurate’? absolutely working, i am having SUCH a good time

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sideblog from NonexistentNull , focused on neurodivergence and disability and such 

call me Null, i use it/its and he/him, masc terms please. 

i’m a straight aroallo trans man (also kinda butch lesbian, it’s complicated). 

i have autism, depression, adjustment disorder, trichotillomania, and chronic pain. i relate a lot to NPD but i don’t think i have the full disorder. i think i’m low support needs? low-medium?

i like writing and drawing 😎 my special interest is my OCs

i struggle with tone, so sorry if i come off as rude. i’m not trying to fight 

feel free to send asks :) i like talking. anon is turned on for now (including questions about writing characters with my conditions, i’m not an expert but i’m happy to share my thoughts)

WARNING i don’t tag reblogs with content warnings, and i reblog stuff that includes gore, self harm, suicide, bigotry, nudity, etc. if you follow me and something really bothers you, just message me and i’ll start tagging it

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tbh i loveeee when people ask me for advice or just ask me questions in general, makes me feel smart and respected and all that

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i absolutely hate how many “how to write an autistic character!” guides ignore level 2/3 autistic people, or even discourage people from writing characters like that. its fine if you’re making a guide about level 1 autism (especially since the people making these guides are level 1), but at least acknowledge that there’s more parts of the spectrum. i’ve even seen guides say that writing characters with level 2/3 autism is infantilizing/ableist/offensive. aughghshg

(by the way , thank you @cripplecharacters for having good info for level 2/3 autism!)

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going through a bunch of my notebooks/sketchbooks/posters/etc from elementary and middle school

on one hand , fun, interesting seeing what little me was up to

on the other hand, little me was a little egotist and put his (now dead)name on EVERYTHING

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Your url is very clever. It actually made me giggle out loud, so thank you for that ☺️.

aw thank you! credit goes to my friend @soapflavouredsoup, it was his idea :)