anon rereading the charioteer again...
i'm sorry to keep asking questions (i really wish the livejournal was still active!!) but i was wondering how you interpret "Laurie's instinct hid what it had felt, for just then his heart would have rejected it as an outrage. As for Ralph, he had had a trying half-hour, and his perceptions were strained; it cannot be supposed he had subtlety enough to guess that a moment of black courage had given him power unasked, when he had only been seeking strength." maybe it's just a me issue but there's SO many instances in this book where the pronouns confuse me and i don't know who's being talked about!
which one of them has been given power unasked? i'm assuming it's talking about laurie and the moment of black courage was him turning down ralph's collar? i think it's the "as for ralph" that is getting me mixed up. at first i read the bit that followed it as ralph had had a trying half-hour and ralph's perceptions were strained (which wouldn't be unbelievable considering the circumstances, i think), rather than it being about laurie's feelings regarding ralph.
as i was typing this and thinking it through it makes a little more sense, but i'm also not confident about my understanding or my ability to articulate it lol
Hello anon and it’s really lovely to hear from you again, it is such a pleasure getting these challenging asks, and this one is a real poser 🤔 In the end I’ve had to just try and feel my way through it, so here goes!
So firstly, I think it must be Ralph who had the moment of black courage, purely based on the way the sentence is structured. It seems to make more sense as a description of something that he has that is hidden from him than the other way round. I had the pleasure of re-reading this whole section and what really struck me was the degree to which Laurie is so locked into their former hierarchal relationship of Head boy and fifth-former, so that might also make sense of the idea that Ralph has ‘power unasked’.
So, if that’s true, what on Earth was the ‘moment of black courage’? Well, I’m struggling to see anything that fits the bill in this scene, although I can imagine Laurie feeling shocked at his own boldness with the collar 😮 There is, however, Ralph’s reaction to ‘The Phaedrus’ popping up again and Laurie’s confusion about it. So, I think the moment of black courage is when Ralph gives Laurie ‘The Phaedrus’ in chapter two, along with that cryptic confession. In the study scene, he is in the middle of a sentence, and he breaks off to look for the book, so it could definitely be seen as something he reached for to help him say to Laurie what he wanted to say. And really, it was a pretty courageous thing to do. ‘Black courage’ also neatly mirrors that early description of having ‘the bleak courage of a disciplined neurotic.’
On this interpretation, the thing he reached for to give him strength gave him power unasked, because Laurie became totally obsessed with the book, and through it his obsession with a mythical Ralph only got stronger. The agonies he goes through over Ralph’s ‘anguish’ and his unnecessary guilt at not telling him about Andrew earlier show just how much he is struggling to free himself of the need to look to Ralph as a higher authority. And Ralph, who wants him as a lover, is now burdened with a responsibility he wasn’t expecting to have.
I would love to know what you think. Does anyone else have an interpretation here?











