The Question I don't Know how to Answer
I often find myself struggling to answering this question
11 months of hoping he’d come back to me as a changed man
Month of hoping he’d finally see himself threw my eyes
Eyes that saw a strong loving family man
A man that once did anything for me at anytime of the day
A man that put me before himself, just to see me happy
But days turned to months and months almost into a year
And it’s came down to multiple second chances and millions of words never being put into action
I cried my eyes out for you that night..
The night you were suppose to show me you’ve changed
The night you were going to change because I was your world again
Yet I found myself on the same roller coaster I swore I’d never go on again
The feeling of your selfishness and desire to be accepted by your friends and this world that has done nothing but tear you down and has done nothing but bring me along for the ride
I swore I’d never do this again…
I’d never put someone else’s happiness above mine
But look at me now..
11 months later, you come running back to me on Monday, and go running back to your same selfish ways four days later
So I ask myself
When will enough be enough?
When will I run outta tears for you?
When will I realize, I deserve the unconditional love I give you so freely.
So when I ask myself the question I’ve always struggled to answer,
The answer is no..
Because after all the tears and empty words of action… enough is finally enough.