#thecat rambles

[professor--sycamore]

its been ages since i inflicted you guys with my face so heres some cute selfies, im beautiful

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it makes me sad when i think how badly the yogs fandom died and how i lost touch with so many good friends because of that, literally an entire huge band of people fell out because a couple fans were super self righteous and thought they were better than others for whatever reason i miss my friends a lot and it makes me sad to think i lost touch with so many people over this if any of y'all used to talk to me im so sorry i lost contact i love you all please if you wanna talk ever you know where i am hmu im happy to add literally anyone on skype or discord or whatever i just miss you all and im so sad i lost such good friends and such a sweet community got broken up i just miss everyone wow

[professor--sycamore]

can we all sit the fuck down now

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Sorry for being so down last night everyone /: I'm going to see mcbusted tonight so don't expect to hear from me much, but I love you all to bits and ill try not to do that again <3

[professor--sycamore]

never ever whatever you do EVER undermine someone’s anxiety.

for YEARS i had people telling me that it was just my age, i wasnt that bad, other people couldnt even go out so i wasnt that bad, etc!

i got diagnosed like 3-4 months ago after finally getting to a point where i was so fed up of throwing up if i wanted to do anything, so i went down and explained it to my doctor. i was fucking shocked when he told me he was gonna put me on meds, because it had gotten to a point where i just thought i was over reacting. i’ve had people speculate on it and tell me im lying or over exaggerating, even my sister tells me that im “showing off” as though not being able to do anythnig without having anxiety attacks is worth showing off?

there are so many different types of anxiety, it cannot be confined down to one symptom. my anxiety is very different from my friend’s, yet we’re on the same stuff.

also, my pills do not make me brave, they do not make me able to talk and they dont stop me from panicking whenever im outside. i still think that every creak in my house is someone trying to kill me, and that everyone who walks past is out to get me. i still feel ill and terrified if i go out, i just dont throw up anymore. i can’t talk to people however if i need to speak (for example in work) i wont just puke or have an anxiety attack.

stop telling people their anxiety isnt real, and stop thinking that the meds make you better straight away.

[professor--sycamore]

next year my sweets

comic con is always on around the same time isnt it? bc then 18th birthday present too ayy

but like

for real

this time next year im going to go ok im gonna meet y’all 

i stg i wanna go so baaad

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C

cats

i dont think i need to explain this?? cats are my life my love the fuel of my energy cats are my fave holy shit guys c a t s

also me lel c;

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ok so apparently jacks uni friends have been saying really dickish things abt me because im in college??

i mean its probably because they’re still jerking off alone to fucking hentai or some shit, but im ready to cut a bitch from the things theyve been saying lel