ok Sooo I'm truly sorry but I feel like i need to let this out but a guy on here that goes by the name of Marco "the Chicano chef" aztlanstateofmindtumblr" which im sure half of you he follows that I see reblog has been my best friend for like 3 years... Someone I kept in contact with like almost everyday decides to just block me out of no where. Fr why do ppl do this??
I ain't ever done anything wrong but kindly and whole hearteldy be there for him as he was for me. He was the sweetest boy I've ever met and had a heart of gold, he'd honestly do anything for anyone and thats wat made him a beautiful person well i atleast thought he was. But I always had my guard up because at times he'd try to manipulate our friendship into it being ok if he saw me a certain way and id always say i'd never do that and share myself with just anybody. And have never gave him a reason to feel that way. We both apreciated our friendship. He'd often say that he loved me and would do anything for me and honestly knew the right things to say and did help me my dumbass believed him everytime to keep him in my life. I always had that fear that he'd leave and he knew that, I lost my friend that died and I haven't talked to anyone almost everyday before besides him. He knew my heart break and my pain and everything about me!
If him meeting a girl has caused him to block me out his life or if its the girl then i hope she's worth it. It's just Soo FUCKING heartbreaking how much more you can't trust the closest and beautiful of ppl in your whole life. It, makes you want to give up everything and close yourself up. How can you meet new ppl and be brave and strong, trust your friends/family when ppl just mess around with you like that?!
I miss my boyfriend that passed away every day and it has been hard until i found comfort in having marco be there just to say hey at times and be there when I cried. Id pray and thank god for bringing him into my life for that and I am devastated.
I don't wish him any pain and thats wats even more sad. And I'm left with broken trust and a torn heart. I have never been rude or lead or hurt his feelings ever.
So if you know him Soo well like i doo, which I know he talks to half the girls on here then just be careful.. Despite this he's a lovely guy and maybe youre worth it more than I am to be his friend. But fuck that.
