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[aftgficlibrary]

so i don't remember much but the fic started with neil being resurrected on the foxhole court and i think andrew or coach waymack find him. it was a halloween special that came out last year and was updated every week and the last chapter came out on Christmas

thank you :)

Anonymous said: Hey! I was wondering if you knew of a fic where Neil is killed in Baltimore, but he comes back to life and the Foxes find him at the court? He still has all his scars and new ones from what Nathan did to him before he died. He also gets another countdown to Halloween and gets kidnapped by Lola again, but with Andrew this time, and she tries to use him to bring Nathan back to life? Thank you sm!

i think you might be thinking of this one? -maz

Things That Go Bump in the Night by ennui_ephemera (M | 30,140 | 7/7)

Neil inexplicably comes back to life after being seven months dead and buried. He has no memory of how he crawled out of his grave, or even when he died. He has a heartbeat, he needs to breathe and eat and sleep, he's irrefutably alive, but that should be impossible. But he doesn't have time to dwell on it, because some very weird things start happening to him, and they all seem to revolve around Neil's mysterious reappearance and a certain countdown to Halloween.

/Graphic Depictions of Violence

[aftgficlibrary]

There’s this one fic where Neil is forced to chop riko’s body into pieces in front of the foxes?

here it is -maz

The Butcher's Boy by mittamoo (Not Rated | 2,289 | 1/1)

He'd done it plenty of times in his life, as a child, on the run with his mom. He'd hoped that the others would never had to witness the darker parts of himself.

/Graphic Depictions of Violence

[aftgficlibrary]

Can you help me find a fic where the team is having dinner at abbey's and neil cuts himself by accident and kinda goes into autopilot and starts trying to fix his hand while the team is kinda freaking out in the background

This is literally my favorite aftg fic of course I can help you-Atlas

Those That Broke Us by WriteThroughTheNight ( T | 6,652 | 1/1)

“Neil doesn’t talk about his mom and doesn’t think about what she’d do to him if she saw him now. He has a family, he has Exy, and he has Andrew. He has more than enough, more than he ever could have dreamed of.

Neil doesn’t talk about his mom until a warm fall day outside the locker room, waiting for the start of their game with his team and family. It’s a place that she doesn’t belong, where not even a memory of her belongs, but she wriggles her way in and takes root in his chest.”

Or

Neil reveals, piece by piece, what life with his mom was like.

[aftgficlibrary]

Hiii so not too long ago one of your asks was on my dash so it might have been reblogged and i don’t even remember what i’m talking about but someone asked about fics with neil and multiple personalities or disassociation or something like that and i think that the fic tenuous by undertow fits in there. idk tho and the fic was just posted today anyway so i recommend it anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Yesss I love this fic-Cassy

tenuous by undertow (cendal) (M | 7,341 | 1/1)

Neil Josten is trying to learn to be a normal person. He has an apartment and a cat. He goes to therapy every Wednesday. He has friends and attends their study group regularly. He eats lunch with his best friend’s brother.

The hardest part is letting people in, but he thinks that one day he’ll get there.

[aftgficlibrary]

Hello, do y'all know any fics where the foxes 'meet' nathaniel? Like in canon timeline but he goes into Nathaniel mode? (Thanks for making this blog tbh it's a lifesaver)

hi! this is all I could find if anyone knows of any other fics pls let us know!-Rachel

Cracked But Not Smashed by Devona_Dil (Not Rated | Incomplete | 2/?)

“Neil is always fine. He’s just tired.”

OR

After his ‘reunion’ with Lola, Neil hasn’t been sleeping well, but for the past couple of days, he hasn’t slept at all… not a wink. And so when his Foxes ask if he’s ok, Neil becomes slightly unhinged in the face of it all, and his manic grin brings up a few memories he’d rather bury…