#thenitisnottheend

[ssaicjareau]

me and andie during the big wheel

unsub: *uses new bar of soap then throws soap away* andie: oh my gosh he's using a lot of soap me: with all that money you coulda bought yourself some new murder knives andie: yeah... or... psychological help

[ssaicjareau]

Friendship is thenitisnottheend sitting through my favorite musicals with me and then me watching chick flicks with her because she needed them after all the emotional damage from the musicals.

[mashedpotatomambo]

11, 21, 30, 44, 49 :)

11. Last three things you had to drink?

Coffee, hot chocolate, water

21. Do you miss anyone?

no one in particular at the moment

30. How is your heart lately?

Beating. But with an improved sense of self, a hint of anxiousness, a dash of newly kindled affection, and a sprinkle of existential crisis.

44. What are you listening to right now?

Sidewinder - Catfish And The Bottlemen

49. Do you make wishes at 11:11?

When I do, they are very cheesy and I know it but I do it anyways.

[ssaicjareau]

Okay so I got tagged by thenitisnottheend and mir-anda-lynn for this and it may or may not have been a long time since they tagged me BUT I'M DOING IT ANYWAYS.

rule 1: always post the rules rule 2: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, and write 11 new ones rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to the post**** rule 4: tell the people you tagged that you tagged them

thenitisnottheend's Questions

Favorite thing in your room? Probably my bed.

Random Saturday afternoon. What are you doing? A whole lot of nothing. Probably hanging out on my couch watching Netflix with my dogs and talking to some friends.

Favorite song lyric? The heart may freeze, or it can burn. The pain will ease if I can learn there is no future. There is no past. I live this moment as my last. There's only us. There's only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other road. No other way. No day but today.

If you could insanely enhance one of your 5 senses, which would you choose/why? None. I would be too overwhelmed if I enhanced any of them because as good as one side of it may sound, your senses pick up good and bad things all around you and I couldn't handle intensifying all the bad things even if I could intensify the good too. If I HAD to choose one of them if would be sight, because I have horrible eyesight as is and I think it would be cool to be able to kind of manipulate what you see.

Do you have a favorite mug? Describe it? My favorite mug is one from Disney World. It’s interesting because I guess it’s more of a cup but I use it as a mug. It’s glass and has all sorts of Disney designs on it and it doesn’t have a handle.

Best TV monologue? “I am thankful for my years spent with this family. I am grateful for everything we shared - for every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them with me and lead by their example wherever I go. This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road. Maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson; or because I don't want to walk around angry; or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept. There are things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And there are people we can't live without, but have to let go.” –Jennifer “JJ” Jareau (Criminal Minds, Season 6, Episode 2, “JJ”)

Favorite time of day? Late at night.

Favorite game? Chess.

If you could relive one day in your life, which one would you choose and why? I’d like to say I would relive the day I started getting bullied so I could either avoid it or set the record straight and make sure people knew they couldn’t walk all over me and prevent my anxiety, depression, and lack of interest in school. But I don’t even know if I’m strong enough to do that today, let alone seven years ago. I don’t really know if that’s not my answer.

Favorite trip you’ve been on? Probably my trip to England to visit my best friend when I was 11.

Possible wedding color schemes? I’d like to do something with jewel tones (deep purple or pink-ish purple) or something with coral or orange.

mir-anda-lynn's Questions

 What is your favorite food? Bagels with cream cheese.

Ability to fly or read minds? Fly. As convenient as it would be to know what everyone is thinking at all times, I would use it in the wrong ways and end up upsetting myself too much. And flying looks super fun.

If you have a free day with nothing to do at all, what do you do? Try and entertain myself. Netflix, playing with my dogs. But eventually I end up harassing someone to do something with me.

Polka dots or stripes? Depends on what it’s for. In general, stripes.

What are three words you would use to describe yourself? Intense, anxious, dramatic.

Who is your biggest role model? Mariska Hargitay.

Can you pick who your favorite person in the world is? Not a chance! I have amazing friends ( thenitisnottheend, romyap1, windowsonatrain, whyisitalwayme, tharan-tuil, mir-anda-lynn, truehoosiergirl. I'm positive there's more no one be at at me.)

How do you normally dress for school? Jeans, t-shirt, hoodie, and flip flops, tennis shoes, or converse.

Favorite movie? Captain America: The Winter Soldier or the Hundred-Foot Journey.

Who are you proud of? SO MANY PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU ALL. A few specifics...

 windowsonatrain. THIS BEAUTIFUL MOTHERFUCKER. LIKE I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU GUYS. Honestly, Yas is the best. And I can't tell you I proud I am of her fighting through all the shit she has to go through on a daily basis because that takes more strength than I will ever have in my life. Ask her and she'll deny it, but she is one of the most caring, kindest people you will ever meet. She takes the time every single day to listen to shit about my boring life, and I think she's pretty gosh darn amazing.

thenitisnottheend. Andie is one of the most dedicated and hardworking people I know. AP classes, National Honors Society, Debate. She balances all that and more. And somehow she still finds time to make it known to her friends that she cares. She wants to be around and talk to you and she cares. She's always been the best at making me feel better and forcing me to think rationally without invalidating me all at the same time. She is truly my best friend and the best friend anyone could ever have.

romyap1. Romaric.This kid is just thebomb.com. I cannot tell you how sweet and kind this man is. No matter what, he always sees the good in people and he is always there for you. I don't doubt he's going to be with me until the end because if I ever let him go, I would be out of my mind. We can go anywhere from absolute silliness to deep conversations without a hitch, because he loves to make people feel good, and he will do whatever it takes to make someone he cares about happy.

whyisitalwayme. Salina, my tiny, cynical, violent buddy. As cold as she seems on the outside sometimes, she's really a total softie. I know it's hard for her to open up and talk to people, but when she does it's crystal clear how amazing she is. It's clear that she will do anything for the people she loves, even if it means sacrificing some of her own happiness. I am so proud of her for that fact alone, and that she has tried to open up to me even though it's hard for her.

A lot of people say they'll be friends with people from high school into adulthood, and I can't promise that we won't drift apart or go in separate directions in life. What I can promise is that I would be one stupid fuck if I let any of these people out of my life. I am so fucking proud to call them my best friends.

What have you done that you are proud of yourself for? I forced myself to admit that my old high school wasn’t working for me academically and sucked it up and transferred to an alternative high school that, even though a lot of things are extremely frustrating, I can be more academically successful there.

My Questions

What would the title of your autobiography be?

If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?

What's the most ridiculous experience you've ever had?

What is your favorite sound?

What is something you are looking forward to?

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

Do you initiate conversations or wait for someone else to initiate one with you? Why?

Why do you love your best friend(s)?

If you could pick a career to become an expert in within a split second and to start working right now, what would it be and why?

What is a fear you would like to overcome within the next 2 years?

Ideally, where would you like to be within 5 years?

I tag thenitisnottheend and mir-anda-lynn (HA TAG BACK SUCKERS), whyisitalwayme, tharan-tuil, romyap1, windowsonatrain, th3joyful-fiz, joyfullyfearless, a-bellz, joyfuljack-a-lackie, and truehoosiergirl.

[mashedpotatomambo]

72-90 :) sorry if there's a couple weird ones in there

So many questions. 

Well.

Let’s take a journey.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Two! Up until around May I only slept with one, and it had to be the least fluffy pillow I had. But, for some reason my head was like “ay can we sleep a little bit off the bed pls thank you” so two currently. 

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

No

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

I probably have a lot just collecting dust at my houses, but most have been donated. Only a couple that I actually see often though.75. Favourite animal?

mantis shrimp…?76. What colour is your underwear?

currently black 77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

I waiver on this one. Vanilla atm78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

anything with cookie dough is bae79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

white80. What colour pants?

black denim81. Favourite tv show?

shiT uh let’s go with OITNB??? so many favorites though82. Favourite movie?

MOONRISE KINGDOM83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

THIS HAS GOT TO BE A RHETORICAL QUESTION84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

I haven’t seen 21 jump street so Mean Girls?85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Why so many questions about Mean Girls?? Probably Regina because she is just a Grade A Bitch.86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

The shrimp that just cleans everything87. First person you talked to today?

Group Message text from Melissa88. Last person you talked to today?

Amanda Panda! I sent her a picture that I found of Brendan Urie asleep with a puppy on top of him. Bless.

89. Name a person you hate?

Matthew the Baby Rapist *chills*

90. Name a person you love?

My stepmom, Kelly!