Mar 10
My parents would do that same thing where any time I was excited to do anything, go anywhere, etc they would make me feel stupid and ugly and anxious about it and (usually) ruin the experience. They're not in my life anymore (for a myriad of reasons) and I will say it is a massive weight off my shoulders. I don't want to straight up trauma dump on you lmao but the instilled anxiety and projected self hatred runs deep and takes time to dissipate but it does eventually. I wouldn't give up on moving out even if it's difficult in ways other people might not understand. Hope things get better for you in whatever way that looks like.
thank you
#skunk mail#its not been so good lately on top of the transitioning in secret#my sleep has been ass since the day i was born and i guess lately the worsening of it#has caused the (tear?) stains on the side of my face to darken#and my mom keeps talking about bleaching my skin#and how my the dark spots look like i dont wash myself#im actually lucky to have never had acne issues but that means that the bumps and blemishes#T has caused have had her being more cruel to me than usual as well#its hard to feel good about anything#i wish i was anything#anonymous#i always end up with kind people offering to let me move in with them#but that just sounds like itd end badly. idk how id even make it and then. what?#i dont do anything. i dont have a life to live‚ honestly#i just want to sleep forever. idc#*idk#im lazy. and i dont go out#theres Nothing
