On Thursday I am beginning my Whole30 Experience. My decision to try this elicits equal parts excitement and sheer terror.....actually its mainly terror. I first heard about The Whole30 two years ago, when I was living in Denver, CO. Why has it taken me this long to challenge myself & take the plunge into the Whole30?
The Answer: I have been afraid.
Allow me to give you some background information:
The past two and a half years have been the most difficult of my life. I have battled with severe depression and anxiety. I have felt so utterly lost and deeply sad that I didn’t know if I would ever snap out of it. I felt shame and embarrassment and as a result I kept my troubles mostly to myself, which wrecked havoc on my mind AND my body. I have struggled with food for two decades; this struggle has ranged from binge eating to starvation and everywhere else in-between. I have realized that in feeling this way I have created many more problems for myself by not respecting my body.
Self sabotage has played a key role in this cycle and I have just recently discovered that now is the time to feel empowered to break it. My emotional state has been better for the past four months and I am ready to respect myself and love myself while creating a better relationship with food for life. I want to create a new pattern and feel good about myself.
I pledge to keep myself accountable and dedicate myself fully for the next 30 days. From everything that I have ready about The Whole30 I know that at times is process will be extremely difficult but I am finally in a place in my life where I am ready for the challenge and need to prove to myself once and for all that I am worth it.