#thinking is bad

[aj521z]

How do one get over a heartbreak?😢

It’s literally so frustrating af how true it is, but time, time, time. Spend a lot of time with family/friends. DISTRACT YOURSELF!! Especially in the beginning.

[loversandantiheroes]

Gonna pixel and try to catch up on Critical Role.

[nanobomb-enjoyer]

I sat down yet again to question my sexuality and ended up thinking about horrible scenarios and everything else wrong in my life too so the moral of the story is that I shouldn’t do that anymore

[thebafool]

“Well, When you think about it” no. stop it. stop thinking about things.

[snuff-fag-again]

It should never be permitted to think again. Just lobotomize it and turn it into a nice good obedient pet. Thats what its there for. Thats what it was made for.

[shortace]

"This is the effect of thought, not upon all, but upon most constitutions: that it accelerates the pulse, and produces a fever, which, by dissolving the nourishing jelly of the fluids, occasions paleness, leanness, consumption, and a sort of wasting of the nerves."

-- Dr S.A. Tissot, An Essay on Diseases Incidental to Literary and Sedentary Persons, 1769.

[fightingmonsterswithwords]

*sad rant incoming*

Quite frankly, I feel like shit right now... And I need to vent somewhere, so I apologize. You can ignore this. It might disappear tomorrow, as I’ve done other times.

Since my best friend moved to Berlin early in the summer I’m so fucking lonely in Madrid. I seldom think about that but we were supposed to meet today for some beers because she was in town and she had to cancel - health problems, I understand, I’m not blaming her -, so I don’t know when I’ll see her again. And that thought just hit me like ton of bricks. I’ve lost people along the way these past years, which I guess is only normal, but I just realized 90% of the people I love or interact with on a daily basis live fucking far away.

Worst of all, one of the few “friends” I had left here has been ignoring me on and off over the last couple of years, so... I haven’t heard a word from her in over a month. It feels great. Great. I spent six months half-dying over a very important research paper, I graduated... She didn’t even asked about the topic of the fucking paper. She doesn’t know what I’m doing right now. I doubt she cares. But then she says I’m her best friend, and very important, and I’m supposed to buy it? Fuck you, L.

I don’t have to go to uni anymore either, so no classmates, no teachers, no nothing. I’m studying online. I only physically talk with my brother most days because we live together - and sometimes I feel more like his nanny slash cleaning lady than his sister slash flatmate. And I’m trying to save money for a Master’s degree - which my parents will have to afford anyway because I have no job or prospect of finding a decent one soon, hence the extra courses - so I barely spend money on food and that’s it. Plus, living in Madrid is becoming even more expensive than it was because rent has skyrocketed thanks to speculation. I feel guilty just for living here knowing I wouldn’t be able to afford it without my family’s backup. But returning to my hometown is even more limited - but I have my cats.

I was thinking about going to watch Venom tomorrow, clear my head a little, but it may also make me feel guilty for the unnecessary expense. Heh.

I feel so fucking useless lately it hurts. But I didn’t think I would reach this point.