“Friends”
You know I always got along with everyone and always avoided conflicts which is why I always had a lot of people I knew and so called "friends". But to be honest I was lonely as fuck. They were exactly the kind of friends who didn't listen to you or had no time as soon as you had any problem. The kind who could only talk about themselves and didn't care about you at all. The kind that got annoyed as soon as you expressed your own opinion so at some point you just stop talking at all. Years passed until I reached my limit. I didn't want to be like that anymore and I didn't want to have that kind of people in my life anymore. They made it meaningless and poisoned it way too much. So I fell into the other extrem: no people at all. In a certain way I was alone but I finally could breathe. I could focus on myself and find out who I was. I started to love myself. I was myself. And at a certain point in time people came into my life for whom I would really do anything from the bottom of my heart and who in turn gave me everything and still give me everything they can. Yes, we are separated by hundreds and thousands of miles, but their presence is closer than anything I have had in my life. And I think that there really can and should be only a handful of people in life who can be called friends. Because they will always be there for you no matter what, they will always understand you no matter how you are and they will love you because you are who you are. And that's the most important thing, isn't it?
