#thinky issues

[the-sweetest-little-angel]

Dissociation and autism and cognitive issues and whatever undiagnosed mental thingy self have is hell combo. Forgot thing cause dissociated. Couldn't remember. Memory been bad. Went from few days memory to barely one day memory. Very difficult.

Dissociated and forgot where safe person was. Start freaking out. Have abandonment issues. Get scared and paranoid. Freaking out can't relax. Overwhelm. Meltdown. Not process. Not feel safe. Couldn't remember. Felt disoriented. Confused. Scared.

Not fun not fun not fun not fun not fun. Can lead to psychotic break if not careful. Cause hold on reality very fragile. Schizospec.

It scary. It feel like not safe. Can't remember. Can't know. Hate it. Not like it. Feel confused. Not sure where stuff is.

[the-sweetest-little-angel]

Hate that not understand things. Hate being slow. Always scared be mocked and laughed at. Try be okay with it. But still so reactive. Anxious. Cannot understand things. Like square peg in round hole. Hitting block to make fit no help, only make worse. Front of brain hurt and feel like thinking worsen. Not understand. Wish knew. Wish understood. Wish brain not struggle.