#brain issues

[walkingstackofbooks]

Fuck, I am just so tired of having to fight against my brain for every little thing...

Wanted to go out LARPing tonight with friends but Getting Ready and Going Out are just so big in my head that I've had to concede that even though I'd enjoy myself even I get there, it just doesn't feel worth another hour's struggle when I might still fail to get out anyway

Ugh. The trouble is that any Event at the moment is slightly-to-a-lot anxiety inducing in terms of the effort needed to get there, and so therefore I don't enjoy the being Events on my calendar because I'm attributing the bad feels to the Event itself rather than to my brain or whatever... Therefore making Events seem even more big and threatening...

But there are just so many steps to going out And I Can't. Maybe I should have started earlier, but still... I was going to put leggings on but I'm wearing fluffy socks so first I needed to take those off and put on real socks which would mean remembering which socks with best with walking boots and I'd also need to find walking boot socks and none of that is Difficult per se, but the fact that *that* should have been the easy bit and knowing after that I still would have to decide how many upper layers to wear under my new armour I haven't worn out before so I'm not too warm or not too cold and ughhhhhhhh

Brain stop being this way PLEASE

[the-trinket-witch]

Goddamn, motherfuck, sunnovabitch Brain PLZ

Vent under

I have another idea for one of already a bunch of animatics I wanna do. Brain, PLEASE let me have time to get some of them out before beaning me upside the head with another. We're BOTH stuck in this capitalist hellscape shit hole, quit packing more ideas in the WIP folder, MAKE ME FEEL BAD FOR NOT GETTING THEM DONE, but also not bothering to take into account that I don't get TIME to do them as quick as I want with a job that's actively fucking my body up.

Just...either slowdown on the new ideas, shut up about not having the rest done, or quit responding to the pinched nerves in my shoulders and back so I CAN work on them. Pick one.

(all this whinging cause I'm still on Brave Little Toaster bullshit, wanting to make a Magicam Monster Halloween animatic to 'B-Movie Show')

[the-sweetest-little-angel]

Dissociation and autism and cognitive issues and whatever undiagnosed mental thingy self have is hell combo. Forgot thing cause dissociated. Couldn't remember. Memory been bad. Went from few days memory to barely one day memory. Very difficult.

Dissociated and forgot where safe person was. Start freaking out. Have abandonment issues. Get scared and paranoid. Freaking out can't relax. Overwhelm. Meltdown. Not process. Not feel safe. Couldn't remember. Felt disoriented. Confused. Scared.

Not fun not fun not fun not fun not fun. Can lead to psychotic break if not careful. Cause hold on reality very fragile. Schizospec.

It scary. It feel like not safe. Can't remember. Can't know. Hate it. Not like it. Feel confused. Not sure where stuff is.

[novelcain]

So many spoons were used today 🫠

[matkatkitkat]

"Apricot Chewing Gum Scented One: But you can remember where you first smelled its treachery." -Disco Elysium

[ileolai]

they put me in the clunk clunk hell tube again! hopefully the last time for a while

[livedinthecastle]

getting put on a watchlist for having babygirl open on one tab and babydoll open on another

[banrionceallach]

My brain is working against me right now. I am heavy-eyed and yawning with exhaustion, but also seized with the desire to do something interesting. Like, brain you just told me you have no energy and can’t concentrate and now you want me to play a complex video game that you know I won’t be able to for more than four minutes?

Stop taunting me!