#thirdhand smoke

[oneofthosecrazycatladies]

So I just learned about a concept called “thirdhand smoke” and I’m now very concerned that I’ll get lung cancer because of the number of ride-shares I’ve taken where the car reeked of cigarette smoke

[fakemyworld]

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[little-witchys-garden]

I've have always used smoke for handling my problems.

TW/CW: smoking, alcohol, depression, hopes of death. {Bad grammar, I'm rather lazy and just feel like venting sorry}

I'm not sure what this post is maybe just a emotional vent?

Since childhood I've used smoke for handling my problems.

When I was a child, my mom would burn incense and herbs to cleanse the space when things went wrong. my parents and almost everyone in my family were very heavy cigarette and tobacco smokers. It was honestly a toxic amount of smoking. Choking amd smothering.

I'd watch my grandparents smoke four sometimes five packs of cigs each day. They'd brag how smoking was elegance, beauty and made things better. Guess that was ingrained in my brain.

I'd watch the smoke dance as they'd puff it out from between their lips when I was sad cause it was pretty...

Smoke dancing in swirls and twirls is wrapped tightly around my childhood. I had bad lungs when I was born and I think all their smoking is most likely why my lungs are so bad now.

At the age of eleven I started smoking and drinking, sadly it was in hopes of ending my life faster... Soon one cig every week turned into four a day, six a day then I got a hold of tobacco, weed and I smoked that as well. Other intoxicating plants that I got my hands on well I smoked. I'd smoke the pain away and numb the traits that came from my disabilities so I'd be seen as normal. People made me feel like it was better being the empty shell of a person with addiction then being Disabled, Queer and trans.

When I turned sixteen I stopped but I struggled. It seemed I couldn't escape the smoke that always lingered in my life. It was unsettling and foreign being without the foggy smoke that had always clouded my existence. I used insense to relace the toxic smoke and it worked though as I grew up dealing with my disabilities was a painful { sometimes physically painful } struggle.

Now I smoke weed and burn my insense in my craft and when dealing with pain from my disabilities but it's my choice and I'm doing so in a healthy way.

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Мне нужно начать курить, чтобы зажечь тебя?

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