#this is a triggering topic

[especdreamy]

I just wanna say thank you for being one of the few artists on this site to provide us with some wholesome, queerplatonic lapidot content. : )

Sadly, my love for the ship has dwindled over the years, one of the main reasons being maya’s tweet. Not because I don’t support Peri being aroace, it’s just… The way Maya worded it made it seem like shipping Peri at all was amoral, or at the very least bothered her. I adore Maya, so it’s… conflicting, to say the least. >_>

Also, the implication that the crewniverse may have decided Peri was aroace from the get go and decided to keep quiet about it for the sake of shipping just… Really doesn’t sit well with me. >_<

Thoughts? Any advice on how to keep enjoying what was basically my OTP since high school?

Maya is an Amedot shipper and is mutuals/friends with other Amedot shippers and has told them that actually shipping Peridot is ok and that she never intended ppl to think shipping Peridot forbidden from her tweets. This is just hearsay but I trust my sources.

AroAce is an umbrella term for a variety of identities and experiences and some aroaces like to date and others don't and each of their expereinces are equally valid and you liking one certain interpretation doesn't mean that you think other aroaces are less valid. As long as ur respectful everyone should be ok.

[b0chelly]

I was mentioned by name (apparently even pronounced correctly) with zero prompting by a psychic to a third party, it was very surprising because they would have no idea who I was in relation to this person. The mention was extremely in character. So I’m feeling like it’s legit. This is upsetting to me because I am now fretting again about the concept of being forced to be me for an indeterminate amount of time. I tried to ask a different coworker about this but she misunderstood my question, she didn’t get that what I was asking is do you think a person if they have any sensation or visuals of their body get to look like how they want. Monster time theory extends into death and I feel I have not done enough prep to feel confident in that. I’ve been planning to, but I’m not in the headspace right now to come up with my own stuff from scratch. I do not want to be me. I do not want this body or any approximation of this body. I have felt the sensation of beautiful nothing many times, that is acceptable because there are no thoughts to think. But I will absolutely not be having it if even to myself alone I exist in my shape.

The dream people COULD allow me to have some relief if they really wanted to. I do not know what is wrong with my brain that is preventing something as simple as monster time. I hate having to be me in my own head as well.