Til this day I think it was your face was the one that scared me the most and made me finally realize what a monster I truly was. You were only a boy trapped in hell and when they asked me to do work on you...I froze. All I saw was my dear Brianna and couldn't help but wonder what would it be like for her, to be trapped in here. Would she cry out for me and her father or would she give up hope like so many before her. Working on adults was so much easier knowing they had lived their lives and some were just as evil as I was but a boy, a small boy who just begun his life. Just about to find out what love was, to get a head on his shoulders and find out what his true calling is, to get a job, to find that special someone, to marry, to have children and--
It would be something I'd want for my little girl.If there was some way...I'd take it all back. I would have taken that job to do work on you just to some way get you out of that hell..Even if it meant having the painful job of killing you. I would risk my life to free as many people as I could, physically or spiritually, let them go. Let them live a new life. The reason I'm writing you this is..Well, I honestly do not know..Maybe I just needed someone to know..To know how sorry I am but sorry doesn't change anything, does it? In some sick twisted why even tried to make up for all I did by healing those on the outside and..and experimenting on myself and letting my "co-workers" do the same for their own sick game of god.Even if it doesn't mean anything to you, I would have wanted a son just like you..If we would have met sooner, before I had Bri, I'm sure I would of tried to save you and taken you away from that place. If you weren't effected by the testing and if it was safe I would have helped find your family and return your rightful home. But if told other wise I most likely would have kept you as my own. You would have loved Brianna and she would have loved you, I'm sure of it. Look at me rambling on and on like this..You probably think I've gonna insane after all theses years...Wouldn't doubt it after all I've seen and done. Just remember this for me, okay? If you ever need ANYTHING..just ask. I'll get it for you no matter the cost or struggle. Food, medication, bandages, anything. Just ask. With Lov-----------------------------------Staring at the paper in front of her, Jezabel let out a frustrating sound as she crumpled it up. There was no way in hell would she send it to him...She doubt that even if she did it wouldn't get to him. One of the others would see it and burn it or someone in the state would find it and track it to her and to all the other chimeras...She sighed and tossed the letter into the trash can. She could always burn it later...Right now all she needed was a good nights sleep.
