#this is goodbye

[gerardwayasvinyls]

Frerard as the White W/ Magenta & Blue Dot Splatter of Chamber's This is Goodbye, and Pink / Baby Blue variant of Queen of Jeans S/T

Happy Pride! (trans version)

[dreamsagain]

Hi everyone. If you are seeing this, you know my time here is almost over. I made this post several days ago and asked Lauren to share when the time was right.

I have enjoyed my time here on Tumblr despite the constant account deletions. Total of all my blogs (4) reached close to 250,000. Wow! Thank you to all that have followed me over the years. But honestly, nothing meant more to me than the special friends I have met here. My life was made better by you. You brought me so many happy moments and smiles.

I did my best to beat this awful disease. I had an incredible medical team that fought so hard for me. Multiple surgeries as well but was never able to get out in front of it. I had the best support around me all the time. My family, Lauren, Lauren's mom and step dad, and my incredible tumblr family in no particular order.. Ellie and Sarah, Karen and Kate, Holly, CJ., Breelynn, Sadie and all those that reached out to me and offered support and caring. I have also composed messages to each of you that Lauren will be sending to you all. I have a couple of requests from you. First, please keep in touch with Lauren. She is going to need you and your support. Her blog is @callmenonames. Second, Please don't cry. Instead, remember the great conversations we had. Remember all the fun things we talked about. You all made my life better. Last, out of respect for my family, please don't post any of the pictures I sent to you. They requested this as well.

So this is it my friends. Now is where I say goodbye and thank you. I love you all for sticking with me. Hope to see you on the other side.

[jjjjeonww]

so…! i’ve made a decision. after everything i’ve been going through irl, i’m going to quit tumblr. i know this may seem sudden; and that you think “oh! but you seem fine yuna!” but i’m actually not fine. i’ve been going through a lot silently (for years now, since like the age of 10-12..) and i don’t think tumblr will help me with my mental health. yes; it’s my safe space, somewhere i would go to when no one was there for me. but now, i think i need to face the real challenges, i can’t have tumblr being my safe space anymore. please know that i still love my 181 followers. each and every single one of you are so special to me.

to my mutuals, you all have done so much for me, and i’m grateful for that. i’m grateful for whatever tumblr has given and granted me. i’m sorry that i’m leaving - though i don’t think anybody would really be affected by my leaving - i still apologize. i hope that maybe one day, just one day, i can come back. come back to this, come back to the love i’ve been getting.

to: @gyubakeries

tiya, you were my first mutual here, and i remember how you greeted me with open arms and such kindness, and i’ll remember that forever my fav gyuldaengie🤍 and i guess i’ll not be seeing that woozi fic, sigh. it’ll be in my heart though, and you’ll be in my heart too.

to: @96z

naya!! im not sure if you’ll see this but when i went to the waterpark - nothing leaked, your advice worked <3 i love you for that, i love you always🩵

to: @kwonienana

my make out sesh partner!! my nana!! i’m sad i wont see the 3rd part to unsent!woozi, but i’ll imagine that reader n him have a good ending. i love you so so so so much, please remember that my delusional-texted-hoshi-on-insta-girl💋

to: @jooyeonsvape

amb, my favourite jooyeon stan, i was so glad to have met another villain on tumblr. and i was glad it was someone so sweet and so kind. i love your fics, every one of them, and i love you. ❤️

to: @studioeisa

kae, my favourite 8star!! i have always loved every single one of your works, and i’m glad that i met a carat-villain, even glader (thats not a word but) that it was you. you were so kind to me, so sweet, so loving. i think now, whenever i see gunil, i’ll think of you. 💚

to: @antoncore

cee!! i loved discussing and talking to you about … riize’s … sizes…💜 (hey that rhymes!) when i first met you, i had no idea that you were secretly this freaky, and to think that you r so cute😭 (personality n looks!) i love you my favourite anton stan💕

to: @chenlezip

anna! my cutie, the woozi fic you wrote for me - i loved it so much. i think i’ve read it daily this week, i’ll never forget it, and i will never ever forget you my darling🤍 (and the jaem series bc WTF I LOVED IT SMM)

to: @seokminfilm

LYR!!! i guess i’m never getting that down bad seok fic huh?? hehe - it’s fine. i just loved talking to you about it, and i thank you once again, for making me one of the main characters in your fic, and a thank you for making mingyu down bad in that fic🤭 i love u my lyric🩶

to: @wonkierideul

this… this one was really hard to write. nini, out of all of my moots - i have to say you’re my favourite. i’m sorry to all the others, but you have a special place in my heart. you’ll always have a special place in my heart. i’m sorry we never got to vc properly, i’m sorry for all the things i’ve done that have pissed you off. i’m sorry, for leaving you. i’ll see you when i see junhui. and, when i see soonhoon, i’ll smile, but feel a pain in my heart, knowing that was once us, not anymore though.

to: @starstrawb

my silly squirrel, i thank you for all of the kind words you’ve said to me, i thank you for all of the good morning and good night messages, all of the ‘checking up on you’ messages. i thank you for everything, the love, the adoration, everything that you’ve given me. i’m sorry i couldn’t give you the same kind of love, but just know i tried my absolute best. 🐿️

to: @kissbyoon

another one that was hard to write. liza, the jeonghan who loves to annoy the woozi, i loved getting annoyed by you, i always did. i loved every single moment with you, even your most delusional ones. i hope you know that i love you. i hope you know that sadly - i’ll not be coming back. maybe i will. maybe i wont. most likely i wont. i’m sorry to say i wont be coming back like how jeonghan is. and please lili, dont wait for me like you’re waiting for jeonghan and wonwoo. it pains me to know that.

to: @gyuwrites

for some reason, we started off as mutuals who just followed each-other, then a stupid anon came in and ruined my chances of actually getting to know you. that’s one of my biggest regrets. maybe in another life we could meet again, and start off good that time. thank you for your support ashley. 💙

to: @noircheols

seilah, thank you for yapping to me, thank you for trusting me with your rants. and just overall, thank you for trusting me. i’ll remember our little yap sessions, where we talked shit, where we vented, where we just… yapped together. it felt right. but me leaving you? it doesn’t. i hope you get a job soon, just know i’ll always be praying for you. 🖤

to: @vernons-wifey12

renee, thank you for the daily horanghaes, i think you were my first ever dolly stan, apart from @/rosiemain and @/seokminfilm. i really enjoyed the time when we were enjoying eachother’s virtual presence, i love you my vernon💗

to: @rosiemain

my roro, i’ll miss you so much. if i could give you a hug, i really would. but for now - does a virtual hug work? 🫂. you’re my favourite woozidan, my absolute favourite. i once said i would never want to find another woozidan ( to @/hanniescookie ) but i’m glad i have. i’m sorry our time of friendship together was so short. i’m rooting you get your boy, and i hope ‘🦢’ gets run over by a truck. i love you forevermore my girl.

to: @hanniescookie

and yet, another hard one. augustine. oh, i didn’t know leaving you would be this hard. i don’t know. i don’t know what i would do without you. your words were the main reason i kept going. no actually, YOU were the main reason i kept going. no matter how fat i felt, how insecure i was, your words broke through them. and you broke down the wall i had built just to get closer to me, i’m sorry to say that now, the wall has been renewed, and there’s no way to destroy it now. i’ll love you my jeonghan to my wonwoo. and i’ll remember you, always and forever.

to: @seokmn

and yet another moot who i have barely gotten to know. thank you for reblogging my jiung smau <3 i hope you can find a boyfie that’s just like loser boy jiung hehe 🐍

to: @honeyhae-svt

미안해, 아내야. 이렇게 일찍 떠나서 미안해. 우리가 서로에게 보낸 음성 메모가 즐거웠어요 ㅎㅎ . 그리울거야. 진짜. 사랑해요. 정말 많이. 나를 잊지마 내 예쁜 소녀야 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 사랑해☹️💓

to: @dokyumms

my texas girlie, pls pls pls think of me when someone mentions young sheldon🤓🤓 but really, legit thank you for becoming moots with me, it was such an honour!! i’ll never forget you. never. this - i swear. i love u lovie💖

to: @kyeomviiee

oh my sweet sweet kae. thank you for all the moodboards you have made me. i hope your break is going well, i hope u think of me hehe😛 but really, take good rest love, i’ll be by your side, just think i’m there with you. 💞

to: @polarisjisung

another moot who i wanted to get to know but sadly did not. thank you for following me, i have no idea why you!! hua!! would follow some one like me but hey i aint complaining <3 take good care of anna for me💜

to: @iamdkayyyyy

thank you for your playlist, and for the wonwoo fic, i really really loved both of it🤍 you are soo soo soo soo kind, and i really love you for that. thank you for everything soumaya🌹

let me take a breather.

and now - to the rest of the people who have supported me, thank you. for everything. literally everything. i love EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. YOU. no matter what you’ve done to me. thank you for all the joy you’ve brought to me on tumblr.com !! my journey on here will be marked in my heart as my favourite journey.

thank you, and this is @jjjjeonww signing off. good night, good evening, good afternoon, and good morning to all of you.

[grimmscythe]

It’s been a hell of a week, and I’ve finally spilled my heart out about what happened once more, but for the first time, I think….

Finally…

I’m letting go of you.

[theycallmemomo]

I feel more alone than ever. I think about how naive I truly must be and how I take everything for face value. It’s disheartening, just wanting to find joy in others just to be let down. The connection has been severed and now I’m starting to question myself more than ever, while insecurity makes its way into my already anxious mind. “You’re just not good enough,” I keep reminding myself of that sentiment. “You’ll never be.” Reassuring myself that I truly am just an accident placed in this world. I feel so hallow and so devoid of happiness and yet I still remain breathing, as if every breath I take is worth the waste of oxygen. I’m just taking up room. Because let’s be honest with ourselves for once, or shall I say let me be honest with myself… if I were to one day disappear, who would even notice? No one. Not a single soul. I don’t really have friends. I mean I do, but me disappearing wouldn’t be alarming. It wouldn’t matter. If I disappeared today, it’d take years for anyone to notice if they were to notice at all. Why waste anymore time, why waste anymore space, why waste resources and such. Why waste what I bet others would be grateful for. Maybe I just need to start giving up completely, and stop trying. Trying has gotten me nowhere with nothing and with no one. Trying has only ever caused problems. Maybe it’s time to give up and call it quits. Maybe it’s time to say goodbye. Time and time again I’m shown I’m disposable, so maybe it’s time to dispose myself and save everyone the trouble. I don’t see anything. The future is black as it’s always been, I just didn’t think I’d linger on as long as I have. I’m sorry for wasting everyone’s time. I think I should start preparing. I guess until next time, bye.

[jenesaiscloud]

actually i think i need to try another tumblr partial break

[coffeebythelitre]

Pretty disappointing news and definetly not what I needed to hear tonight. I won't be watching anymore and because I have nothing nice to say, that's gotta be it (and I can add another doc to the dnf pile).