whether near or far, i am always yoursany change in time, we are young again
It's almost two years back, when Anderson and Mason had been going to support group together. Back when they'd first confessed their love for one another. Anderson's pretty popular, for obvious reasons. Mason's just likable, and people found him pretty attractive, but it was always Anderson they wanted. But Anderson didn't want them. He wanted the beautiful golden boy with the striking, captivating blue eyes. He wanted his best friend.
It's months before either of their scheduled surgeries, and they're in their treehouse, talking about how much their lives would change after the surgeries. Anderson would be blind. Completely and irreversibly blind. It was a scary concept, being swallowed by the color black for the rest of his life. And he'd never admit it, but for a while, he let the darkness envelope his spirit, let it eat him alive. Mason was the only light in his life.
It's only minutes before they're kissing, before they've agreed that it would be better this way. It's Mason's first time having sex with a man, being fucked by another man. It's Anderson's first time sticking his dick in something that isn't a vagina or a female's mouth. But it's okay, because it's Mason, and it's Anderson. It hurts Mason when Anderson initially penetrates him-- of course it does. And Anderson does his best to kiss the pain away, hurting Mason being the last thing he ever wanted. Soon the pleasure dissolves into pain and the only sounds that can be heard is the gentle slapping of skin against skin and the sounds of their own names spilling from one another's mouths in ecstatic harmony.
But when it's time for them to be finished, when both of them have reached their climax, Anderson's so overwhelmed with emotion for this boy and at the same time so overwhelmed with fear of the inevitable, fear of his own inexorable oblivion, that he collapses on top of Mason, face buried in his shoulder as he breaks down into tears. "Mase… Oh god, Mase," he sobs, and Mason holds him; of course he does, they're in love.
lay us downwe're in love.
