This'll Be My Year
It's New Year's Eve and you know what that means. It's the last day of the month. The last 24 hours before we turn a new page in our book and add another candle on our birthday cakes. It's the perfect time to look back on the year that has been.
2012 has been quite a year for me. That much I can honestly say. I'm not going to sugarcoat any details and tell you that the year is all good because it hasn't. And you know what? I'm actually really thankful about that.
I'm feeling very nostalgic right now--just like I feel very nostalgic on every New Year's Eve of my teenage life. Let me share with you the 2012 chapter of the book that is my life.
This year, it all started with a bang. I'm not talking about the fireworks. I mean, Prom. Prom was one of the most stressful, frustrating, complicated and exciting things in my 2012.
It was because of Prom that I realized the true meaning of friendship. This year, friendships have been tested and have fizzled out in my life. I saw who I should and shouldn't keep holding on to. I lost a friend, and gained so many more along the way. I saw and felt true friendship. And to that I thank you. Thank you for seeing and knowing the real me. You don't know how thankful I am that I met you and that you showed me what true friendship is.
Prom also showed me that there's no love like the love your family gives. You see, during this stormy time in my life, I found warmth and shelter in my family. They were there for me, ready to listen and help. To my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and dear little sister: Thank you. You guys showered me with love that made me the happy and more confident girl that I am now. I love you like Pooh Bear loves honey. haha Cheesy, but true.
June this year I started the most emotional, exciting, fun, and challenging school year of my life: Senior year. Yes, I am now a Senior. It's a fact I've tried to downplay because the implications that go with this word are things I could not bring myself to come to terms with. A phase marking changes, in every aspect of my life. I got to appreciate my childhood and my school and how much I learned from them. I could never see myself becoming the person I am now if not for my teachers and classmates. I guess the song "To Sir, With Love" summarizes everything I have to say to you guys.
School year 2012-2013 brought about hectic days. And when I say hectic, I mean HECTIC. Activities were piling up one another and my weekends were booked. There were times when I just wanted to forget about them and become the lazy bum that I am, but I realized how big of an opportunity they are to learn and enjoy. To every single activity I had this school year, I regret nothing.
Then, there were those times when I had my 20 seconds of unwavering courage. I wore my one shoulder prom dress (something I'm proud of because I'm a big-boned chubby girl who's too shy to wear sleeveless clothes in public). I went on a zipline (after convincing myself that nothing bad is gonna happen and it's a memorable, worth-it experience) and ended up having a blast.
2012 brought one heck of a wave of change for me--from my relationships to my activities and routines. Honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Change scares the heck out of me, but it sure made me a better person. Well, I'd like to think so.
This year gave me new treasures to keep: friends, family, memories and experiences. And on top of that pile, I have my faith in God. All these changes and experiences in my life this year taught me to hold on to God and trust in Him. Whenever times got hard, I always said to myself that God is right by my side and He will be there to get me through this. When things seem cloudy and uncertain, I hold on to the thought that if He meant it for me, it will happen for me.
2012 is my year--frustrations, joy and all. I've had my ups and I've had my downs. I gained some and I lost some.
This 2013, I wish it to be better. I expect it to bring more changes and challenges, but I also expect it to be even more fun and exciting. I can't say anything for sure except this: I will start my 2013 with an open heart and mind and a lot of love and positivity.
Happy New Year, everyone! :)