#thllda kin

[shittykinaesthetics]

Shitty Eito Aotsuki aesthetic: there is an idea of an eito aotsuki, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though i can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: i simply am not there

[blindedsavior]

for in-character music taste reasons i SHOULD have the NIN version of hurt on my eito playlist. however have you considered that “i wear this crown of thorns” is a much more eito-relevant version of that line. and therefore i use the johnny cash version.

moooost of the rest of the playlist is pretty solidly rock, except for 君はできない子, which absolutely doesn’t fit the vibe but belongs there for Reasons.

[angelboxed]

(tries to pied piper all hundred line kins to hang out with me but it's like a really shitty squeaky recorder)

[blindedsavior]

picks takumi up in my mouth and chews him and chews him and shakes him around.

[blindedsavior]

DESPITE ALL MY RAGE I AM STILL JUST A RAT IN A CAGE!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!

[blindedsavior]

lays face down on the floor and screams and screams and screams and screams and screams.

[blindedsavior]

memories, and things…

there was a movie i liked, i think? an animated one, about a white rabbit. i don’t remember what it was about, just the visuals — it was a very simplistic anime style, kind of tezuka-esque? very flat colors, almost like construction paper cutouts. i get the feeling it was an older movie. i remember watching it on mute with subtitles on so i wouldn’t have to hear any human voices. i didn’t like a lot of movies as a child, i strongly preferred books, so this was something of an anomaly. i would watch it when i didn’t have anything new to read. i wish i could remember more about it.

[blindedsavior]

getting sunburned while i’m [gestures to my glasses] is really really a crazy fucking feeling.