When you ask to be able to relinquish things that are holding you back, be prepared to feel overwhelmed. At least initially. I was certain there were a few things that I needed to let go of in the new year. Areas that, for awhile, I felt justified to hold onto and be "right." Places of bitterness that were exposed and doing a number on my heart. So you can imagine the surprise when I spent time in prayer and opened my eyes to the sight of a FedEx truck backing into my driveway to deliver the rest. Figuratively, of course. Piles upon piles of unopened junk to sift through. And one thing in particular fell at my feet. That little box I thought I'd sent far away from my core fell gently against the side of my shoe as I stood there staring at this pile. It hit me hard two Sundays ago and I walked through service partially unable to really speak and partially ready to just spill my guts so someone would give me comfort. And someone did. Someone reminded me that the attacks are swift and certain but I MUST remain strong in knowing that He who lives in me is so much greater than that. Such a loving soul to give me the reminder for the strength I needed to find. Strength that was already there but had been misplaced as I allowed myself to listen to lies. Allowed self-condemnation to whisper in my ear. The problem isn't resolved yet but I know what needs to be done. My resolution lies in the Light. It will be delivered with truth and love that walk hand and hand with it. And I have a new outlook on my mistakes. They are there to teach and remind me that I'm not alone and the lifeline to which I cling can conquer even the darkest of despair that the enemy wants to use against me. Thank you, precious lady, for your reminder. I am writing this to you. For that, I am stronger now. #thissideofgrace #thosewhoprayforyou