#thought spill

[life-of-reb]

a slow sunday

clouds evolve and disperse as though we know of nothing else

- reb

[foreigndivinities]

has anyone talked about the fact that clueless (1995) is just a modern day recreation of emma by jane austen

[forthegraveyard]

i’m just so sad today

[whats-up-im-bored]

i found out jjong has a song called happy birthday maybe two weeks ago and i forced myself not to listen to it until it was actually my birthday

i just listened to it for the first time and i’m crying

there’s the one harmony that sounds absolutely heavenly with headphones in and i felt ten years get added to my lifespan and my heart got 1000x bigger

god he just makes me so happy

[my-infp-world]

The issue with constantly being compared to someone or multiple someones is that it can drive you forward but it can also cast heavy shadows on you. Direct constant comparisons, especially by those around me caused me to always push forward and try to do things to "outshine" the others. And I think some people can thrive in that pressure, they feel and appreciate their growth. I, on the other hand, did not. Looking back, I see that there are things that I should be proud of, that should make me more confident, but it just feels like I'm just looking at another person's life. I can't remember the last time I had a true goal or even a dream. I have no drive to move forward anymore, I'm honestly not sure if I ever did. Maybe I was just following the current. I feel like I'm just... Here. I see others moving forward and I believe they deserve it and I want the best for them. It's a strange feeling that it feels like I've hit the end of my road, that I've reached my peak in some ways. But I don't feel negatively about this at all. I don't want compassion or pity or change. It's a strange feeling to have. I do wonder when I started feeling this way, I'm also curious if it'll stay.

[bumble-b1tch]

It literally just hit me that Cameron Boyce is actually dead, I think that I’ve just been in denial for so long because I thought it was just some big hoax when I first saw it. I grew up watching him on Jessie and would watch decedants with my cousins when it was on. He was one of my first childhood crushes. It finally hit me when I was on Instagram and saw China’s video and started seeing all the posts for his foundation. This is the first time an actor that I’ve grown up watching and is relatively young has died in my life, and I really don’t know what to do except write this just to get it out of my head... It’s just weird to me how when you grow up watching them and they continue their career in the spotlight and they become kind of a constant in the background of your life and once they’re gone... it’s like what am I supposed to do to fix that empty space. I just needed to get that out.

[writerlex]

Thought Spill #02

Cliche storylines are "cliche" because someone made it up and everyone else liked it. Everyone made it their own, then it became overrated/cliche. I applaud to the person who first made any "cliche" storyline because everyone adores their work.