If Pen didn’t have her own source of income, she might not have been so quick to inform @threecardtrick of her mother’s financial tendencies. If it weren’t for her ever-growing Whistledown stash beneath her floorboards, she, too, would be heavily reliant on her husband’s generous spirit, and thus caged by it.
“And you may call me Penelope, if you wish. Or Pen, if it’s easier.” Her eyes remained downcast, feeling wholly inexperienced for such a moment. She’d taken lessons in everything a young lady of the ton might need to secure a marriage: pianoforte, dancing, embroidery, even maths for a short time. But there had never been a lesson for what was to be done after a marriage had been secured. It was, she supposed, different for every union. The ease of the wife’s life would also depend solely on the man’s willingness to compromise and his affinity towards benevolence.
Thomas didn’t seem cruel, but he didn’t seem like an utter romantic, either. Perhaps she might learn to love him in time, but it would be a long and grueling journey, she thought. Or maybe it wouldn’t be too terrible. If she could learn more about him, about the way he worked, the way he lived, Pen might have an easier time finding a rhythm in the new arrangement. But how was she supposed to tell him she wanted to know everything?
“Is there anything you believe a wife should know about her husband?” Finally raising her gaze, Pen’s eyes meet his and she wonders if she’ll always be this way with him, if there will always be a rift of awkwardness between them. If she were to ask her mother for advice, she’d most likely suggest ignoring his presence altogethr as best she could. Getting to know him wouldn’t matter, and, if anything, would only be a chore for the new bride. But Pen wasn’t fond of the idea of sleeping beside a complete stranger, let alone someone she actively avoided. If her own parents' marriage was anything to judge by, living a life avoiding one's spouse proved more tedious than learning about them. And if such an arrangement were to be beneficial to more than just him, she would need to open herself to the possibility of seeing all of him, and, in turn, being seen.
“Or, rather, is there anything a husband should like to know about his wife?”