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How I told your grandma from your dad's side

Well baby, we had a hard time or perhaps like a dilemma on whether we wanted to tell your grandma on your dad's side or not. We knew her personality quite well, she kind of like to share some personal stuffs to others. For example, she can one day come up to us and say: 

"H (your dad), I'm going to tell you something but make sure you dont spread it around. Did you know that so and so did this..........." and it will go on and on... This usually happens in the car when she was just driving us home from Jurong and your dad and I will giggle at the back at how funny she can be - she can't really keep a secret if its not hers. 

I am someone who always believe in fairness because I hate to be treated unfairly, so I always try to be fair to my family, friends or colleagues. I try not to treat anyone specially unless, if I really think it will bring some kind or benefit or advantage. Anyway, as I have already told my mum about you right after the doctor's visit, we were still contemplating if we wanted to tell your other grandma as we really did not want the news to spread around too fast. And we were considering the best time to tell her was perhaps, on Sunday, where we have planned a trip to go to Adventure Cove for swimming with your dad's family. 

So we went to meet your dad's family on Sunday morning, 23rd Feb, at Harbourfront hawker center for breakfast and at that time, I obviously couldnt eat much, so we shared a bowl of lontong. Afterwhich i just took out my folic acid to eat. I kinda forgot that your father's elder sis, your aunt, is a nurse so she will know/suspect that im pregnant when I ate it in front of her. Haiz. Silly me. Sorry about that baby. So we ate then walked to Vivo to catch the train. While on the way there, we stopped awhile as your grandma has to go the the restroom. So we hung around at BATA and I was looking after one of your twin cousin. She was looking at some baby shoes and said to your aunt "Mama, boleh belikan kasut untuk baby Mak Su!" and your aunt quickly shushed her. That was when I realised your other aunt was pregnant. 

So, when I found out your younger aunt was pregnant, I had to double confirm with your cousin and she was like "Yes, she is going to have a baby in October". I was like - O-M-G. LOLSSS. Seriously, what a coincidence. 

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel at that moment. To laugh at the coincidence or to feel disappointed because it seems like you are not going to be so special anymore to your dad's family's eyes because, again the attention was taken away from you... But I decided to feel happy for your aunt, because, hey, any news of a baby is good news. It is a gift from God, and I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to your dad's family anyway, I wanted them to be happy because happiness is something that can never be bought. So I had to tell your dad the good news but told him let's respect and wait for his mum to tell us instead. 

So, the whole day at Adventure Cove I watched your dad and his family play while I just lay on the sunbed resting because I was too tired to even move. I had to keep telling you to be patient even though I was too hungry and I didn't really have any appetite to eat nuggets or hotdogs that your grandma brought as I remember they should be eaten hot only. So waiting for your grandma to break the news seemed like it was never going to happen. 

We went back to your grandma's place in Jurong because she asked us to drop by so we agreed. Again, no news from her. Until your grandma and grandad was sending us home, they dropped by at Boon Lay to buy some stuffs. Your dad and I were in the car and we were planning how to break the news to her. 

We came up with many different scenarios - e.g. ask about his sister's jobs, ask about why his sister was sick to bring up the topic and I told your dad to bring it up, but seriously, your dad doesn't have big enough balls. I was the one who had to initiate the conversations. We even sat at the coffee shop but your grandma didn't spill out anything. 

I was a bit nauseous after eating but tried to contain it because I didn't want your grandma to suspect anything yet. So back in the car, again, I had to try to make small talk to lead to the topic to no avail while at the back your dad and I kept elbowing and sniggering how your dad has no balls. LOL. 

There was one time we thought your grandma's wall was going to break, when she asked me when I was going to graduate. Because that topic ALWAYS ends up with her mentioning about "ok you can have kids after school its better' to maybe make herself feel better? LOL. Well, I always think that way because seriously, I didn't like people asking me 'when is your turn to have a baby?' Like, mind your own business, please? But nooo she still didn't mention anything abt your younger aunt. LOL. 

So, I quietly signal to your dad that his balls should just be crushed and I just slowly broke the news to your grandma. I just mentioned that our house would be ready by end of the year. And that a lot of money needs to be used. We need to think about a house and I really wanted your dad to get a driving license so that he can drive a car if we were to have a baby. And let your grandma nag at your dad while i was still signalling his balls should be crushed cos he had no guts. LOL. So I told her, we really need to save alot of money this year, because hopefully by October, we will be having a baby. 

We could tell she was trying to digest the information with her hesitation. She was like.. Oh that's great....... *pauses for 5 seconds*... turns to your grandad, "Oh, we're going to have TWO more grandchildren this year!". 

And then, that was when the dam burst. Everything came out. About your dad's younger sis being pregnant, how she fell ill, which hospital she went, when he EDD is going to be, who else she told. I kept reiterating to her I didn't want ANYBODY to know about it, even your dad's grandparents because we wanted to break the news ourselves. She also told me how earlier today your elder aunt told her she might be getting two grandchildren instead because she saw me eating the folic acid but she didn't think so because it doesn't look like I'm pregnant. 

She even told us how she was concerned I wasn't getting pregnant for almost a year because she was afraid your dad was sterile like his uncle and granduncle due to family history and I told her it was because we just wanted to go to Europe first and travel before conceiving. She was also saying how our travel plans to go Japan had to be cancelled because of the baby and I explained why I decided not to go because of the transit times and not because I was pregnant.

When we reached home, she got out of the car and gave me a hug to say she was very happy and that I should look after myself and be more careful. I can tell she was really relieved that her son can perform and have a child. LOL. I reminded her again not to tell anyone (yes I'm paranoid) and she said ok. 

So, when we reached home, your dad and I had a laugh at how your dad should not have balls because he really couldn't and didn't dare to ask his mum questions or even break the news. We also agreed that it was perhaps ok to tell his mum abt it because if she could stay tight lipped about his sister's pregnancy, perhaps she could do the same for ours. This is why I love your dad so much, because of the chemistry we have. We can laugh at the silliest things. :)

So, baby, that was how we spilled the beans to your grandma & grandad from your dad's side. Also, this is a reminder to you, to know that even though you may not be the only one born this year, and you have another cousin who will get the attention away from you, you are still precious and very special to me and your dad. It doesn't matter if you don't get any attention from anyone, because, what is important is that the people that matters love you and treats you special. Also, always be happy for other's happiness, because that is the only way for you to be happy with yourself. And always be thankful for what you have, and be happy for what others have, because each of us will have different blessings from God. Your dad and I will try our best to give you the best we can, because you are special to us, always. 

Good night baby. Time to tuck in. <3