Random Thoughts at midnight.
Suddenly, this came into my mind "If I freed my self from work and take a rest, what's next?". I surely don't know yet, but I am hoping that this time great things will happen. I've been suffering personal issues this past 2 years, and I only kept that by myself. It seemed that I've been experiencing anxiety and depression lately, it's like I'm never gonna recover from this. There were times, I cried out of nowhere for no reason, feel sadness most of the time like for example in a day, I am experiencing moodswings, sudden change of moods from being happy to being sad most of the time i feel sad, like, tulala everytime. And I want to change that, I want to gain back myself again the happy me, worry-free me, the healthy one.
I know things are rough and tough right now, but I want to recover from this so I can be strong again and help my family, I want to bring back the 'passion I have for teaching, I want to continue teaching, not just for the money or for my family but also for the children who are willing to learn and be somebody someday'. I want to gain myself back na. Lord, please help me with this tough time that I am encountering, end this very soon please, let me see sunshine again. I am so much tired of being at the gloomy side of life. Let me see sunshine and feel the fresh air again.